"Who knows, buddy? Who the hell knows?"
The wail of the ambulance siren lifted shrill into night above the river until the driver remembered that time no longer mattered. He cut it off. The river flowed quiet again, reaching toward a gentler shore.
(End of part four * Scanned and fully proofed by nihua)
EPILOGUE
Late June sunlight streamed through the window of Chris's bedroom. She folded a blouse on top of the contents of the suitcase and closed the lid. She moved quickly toward the door.
"Okay, that's all of it," she said to Karl, and as the Swiss came forward to lock the suitcase, she went out into the hall and toward Regan's bedroom. "Hey, Rags, how ya comin'?"
It was now six weeks since the deaths of the priests. Since the shock. Since the closed investigation by Kinderman. And still there were no answers. Only haunting speculation and frequent awakenings from sleep in tears. The death of Merrin had been caused by coronary artery disease. But as for Karras... "Baffling," Kinderman had wheezed. Not the girl, he'd decided. She'd been firmly secured by restraining straps and sheet. Obviously, Karras had ripped away the shutters, leaping through the window to deliberate death. But why? Fear? An attempt to escape something horrible? No. Kinderman had quickly ruled it out. Had he wished to escape, he could have gone out the door. Nor was Karras in any case a man who would run.
But then why the fatal leap?
For Kinderinan, the answer began to take shape in a statement by Dyer making mention of Karras' emotional conflicts: his guilt about his mother; her death; his problem of faith; and when Kinderman added to these the continuous lack of sleep for several days; the concern and the guilt over Regan's imminent death; the demonic attacks in the form of his mother; and finally, the shock of Merrin's death, he sadly concluded that Karras' mind had snapped, had been shattered by the burden of guilts he could no longer endure. Moreover, in investigating Dennings' death, the detective had learned from his readings on possession that exorcists frequently became possessed, and through just such causes as might here have been present: strong feelings of guilt and the need to be punished, added to the power of autosuggestion.
Karras had been ripe. And the sounds of struggle, the priest's altered voice heard by both Chris and Sharon, these seemed to lend weight to the detective's hypothesis.
But Dyer had refused to accept it. Again and again he returned to the house during Regan's convalescence to talk to Chris. He asked over and over again if Regan was now able to recall what had happened in the bedroom that night. But the answer was always a headshake; or a no; and finally the case was closed.
Now Chris poked her head into Regan's bedroom; saw her daughter with two stuffed animals in her clutch, staring down with a child's discontent at the packed, open suitcase on her bed.
"How are you coming with your packing, honey?" Chris asked her.
Regan looked up. A little wan. A little gaunt. A little dark beneath the eyes. "There's not enough room in this thing!" She frowned.
"Well, you can't take it sill, now, sweetheart. Leave it, and Willie will bring the rest. Come on, baby; hurry or we'll miss our plane."
They were catching an afternoon flight to Los Angeles, leaving Sharon and the Engstrom to close up the house. Then Karl would drive the Jaguar crosscountry back home.
"Oh, okay." Regan pouted mildly.
"That's my baby." Chris left her and went quickly down the stairs. As she got to the bottom, the door chimes rang. She opened the door.
"Hi, Chris." It was Father Dyer. "Just come by to say so long."
"Oh, I'm glad. I was just going to call you myself." She stepped back. "Come on in."
"No, that's all right, Chris; I know you're in a hurry."
She took his hand and drew him in. "Oh, please! I was just about to have a cup of coffee."
"Well, if you're sure..."
She was. They went to the kitchen, where they sat at the table, drank coffee, spoke pleasantries, while Sharon and the Engstrom bustled back and forth. Chris spoke of Merrin: how awed and surprised she had been at seeing the notables and foreign dignitaries at his funeral. Then they were silent together while Dyer stared down into his cup, into sadness.
Chris read his thought. "She still can't remember," she said gently. "I'm sorry."
Still downcast, the Jesuit nodded. Chris glanced to her breakfast plate. Too nervous and excited, she hadn't eaten. The rose was still there. She picked it up and pensively twisted it, rolling it back and forth by the stem. "And he never even knew her," she murmured absently. Then she held the rose still and flicked her eyes at Dyer. Saw him staring. "What do you think really happened?" he asked softly. "As a nonbeliever. Do you thinly she was really possessed?"
She pondered, looking down, still toying with the rose. "Well, like you say... as far as God goes, I am a nonbeliever. Still am. But when it comes to a devil--- well, that's something else.
I could buy that. I do, in fact. I do. And it isn't just what happened to Rags. I mean, generally."
She shrugged. "You come to God and you have to figure if there is one, then he must need a million years' sleep every night or else he tends to get irritable. Know what I mean? He never talks. But the devil keeps advertising, Father. The devil does lots of commercials."
For a moment Dyer looked at her, and then said quietly, "But if all of the evil in the world makes you think that there might be a devil, then how do you account for all the good in the world?"
The thought made her squint as she held his gaze. Then she dropped her eyes. "Yeah... yeah,"
she murmured softly. "That's a point." The sadness and shock of Karras' death settles down on her mood like a melancholy haze. Yet through it, she saw a speckled point of light, and tried to focus on it, remembering Dyer as he had walked her to her car at the cemetery after Karras'
funeral. "Can you come to the house for a while?" she'd asked him. "Oh, I'd like to, but I can't miss the feast," he replied. She looked puzzled. "When a Jesuit dies," he explained to her, "we always have a feast. For him it's a beginning, so we celebrate." Chris had another thought. "You said Father Karras had a problem with his faith." Dyer nodded.
"I can't believe that," she said. "I've never seen such faith in my life."
"Taxi here, madam."
Chris came out of her reverie. "Thanks, Karl. Okay." She and Dyer stood up. "No, you stay, Father. I'll be right down. I'm just going upstairs get Rags."
He nodded absently and watched her leave. He was thinking of Karras' puzzling last words, the shouts overheard from below before his death. There was something there. What was it? He didn't know. Both Chris's and Sharon's recollections had been vague. But now he thought once again of that mysterious look of joy in Karras' eyes. And something else, suddenly remembered: a deep and fiercely shining glint of ...triumph? He wasn't sure, yet oddly he felt lighter. Why lighter? he wondered.
He walked to the entry hall. Hands in his pockets, he leaned against the doorway and watched as Karl helped stow luggage in the cab. It was humid and hot and he wiped his brow, then turned at the sound of footsteps coming down the staircase. Chris and Regan, hand in hand.
They came toward him. Chris kissed his cheek. Then she held her hand to it, probing his eyes tenderly.
"It's all right," he said. Then he shrugged. "I've got a feeling it's all right."
