“That’s not possible.”
“And yet.”
His scowl deepens. “It’s just a coincidence.”
“Mmm.”
“Okay—I’m not proud of it, but it’s possible that my musical taste was influenced by the fact that in my
formative years I, too, was an angry white boy.”
I snort. “I bet you were. Well, if you ever want to work through that rage productively I could recommend some singer-songwriters—” There’s something on the side of the road. I crane my neck to see better. “Oh my God.”
He gives me a worried look. “What’s going on?”
“Nothing. I just—” I wipe my eyes. “Nothing.” “Bee? Are you . . . crying?” “No,” I lie. Poorly.
“Is it about female singer-songwriters?” he says, panicky. “I’ll buy an album. Just let me know which one is best. Honestly, I don’t know enough about them to—”
“No. No, I— There was a dead possum. On the side of the road.”
“Oh.”
“I . . . have issues. With roadkill.”
“Issues?”
“It’s just . . . animals are so cute. Except for spiders. But spiders are not really animals.”
“They . . . are.”
“And who knows where the possum was going? Maybe she had a family?
Maybe she was bringing home food to kids who now wonder where Mommy is?” I’m making myself cry harder. I wipe my cheek and sniffle.
“I’m not sure wildlife abides by the rules of traditional nuclear family structure—” Levi notices my glare and instantly shuts up. He scratches his nape and adds, “It’s sad.”
“It’s okay. I’m fine. I’m emotionally stable.”
His lips curl up. “Are you?”
“This is nothing. Tim used to make me play this stupid ‘Guess the Roadkill’ game to toughen me up, and once I literally ran out of tears.” Levi’s jaw hardens visibly. “And when I was twelve we saw a family of splattered hedgehogs on a Belgian highway and I cried so hard that when we stopped to get gas, a Federale Politie agent questioned my uncle on suspicion of child maltreatment.”
“Got it. No stops until New Orleans.”
“No, I promise I’m done crying. I’m an adult with a shriveled, hardened heart now.”
He gives me a skeptical glance, but then says, “Belgium, huh?” and his voice is curious.
“Yeah. But don’t get too excited, it was the Flemish part.”
“I thought you said you were from France.”
“I’m from all over the place.” I take off my sandals and push my legs against the dashboard, hoping Levi won’t take offense at my bright yellow nail polish and my incredibly ugly pinkies. I call them the Quasimotoes. “We were born in Germany. My father was German and Polish, and my mother
half-Italian, half-American. They were very . . . nomadic? My dad was a technical writer, so he could work anywhere. They’d settle in one place, stay for a few months, then move to a new one. And our extended family was very scattered. So when they died, we—” “They died?” Levi turns to me, wide-eyed.
“Yeah. Freak car accident. Airbags didn’t work. They’d been recalled, but
. . .” I shrug. “We’d just turned four.”
“We?” He’s more invested in my life story than I expected. I thought he just wanted to fill the silence.
“Me and my twin sister. We don’t really have memories of our parents.
Anyway, after their death we were sent from relative to relative. There was Italy, Germany, Germany again, Switzerland, the US, Poland, Spain, France, Belgium, the UK, Germany again, a brief stint in Japan, the US again.
And so on.”
“And you’d learn the language?”
“More or less. We were enrolled in local schools—which, total pain, having to make new friends every few months. There were times I thought in so many languages I didn’t even speak, I couldn’t understand the inside of my own head. Not to mention, we’d always be the kids with an accent, the kids who didn’t really get the culture, so we never properly fit in, and—
Shouldn’t you be monitoring the road instead of staring at me?”
He blinks repeatedly, as if shaking off the shock, and then looks straight ahead. “Sorry,” he mumbles.
“Anyway. There were lots of countries, lots of relatives. Eventually we landed in the US with my maternal aunt for the last two years of high school.” I shrug. “I’ve been here ever since.”
