From anyone else, that line might have been humorous and cutesy, but from Jonathan, it was throwing the gauntlet. He didnât believe for one second that they were in love. Determination spread through her, taking root in the pit of her stomach, and from the shadowed look on Willâs face, he felt the same wayâchallenge accepted.
Chapter 21Will
Try as they might, no one in the Thorne family was a night owl. Not even Daniel, despite a lifetime of overnight shifts ahead of him. Will wasnât either, but this house never let him sleep. He liked to think that it was his momâs way of letting him know she was there, choosing him to keep her company like he had as a surly kid and then a teenager terrified of losing his mother. Heâd always stayed awake for her, listening to her stories and telling his own. She knew his greatest secrets, which as a fairly normal teenager hadnât been that big. He knew her fears, regrets, and hopes for each of them.
Even lying in bed next to the girl heâd dreamed about for the last eight years, he felt the pull of the house. Hannah, though she must have been accustomed to sharing a bed at least some of the time, was a bed hog. It was adorable. Last night, she had tossed and turned, almost taking out his knee cap. Tonight, she was sprawled across the bed, her arm slung over Willâs torso, her head resting next to his shoulder. At any other house, on any other night, this would be heaven. But Hannah had done her telltale giggle by the time they returned to their room after accepting Jonâs offer for a nightcap, and this house and all its memories haunted him. At least he didnât have to worry about anyone spilling the Madison beansâif there was anything his family understood, it was secrets and decorum. Not to mention heâd spent the entire day threatening Jon and Madison within an inch of their lives. And while his father hadnât sought him out yet, Will knew Jonathan would keep the truth in his back pocket, a grenade waiting to be detonated.
Will sidled his way out of bed, pulling the comforter up over Hannahâs shoulders. She immediately flopped over, pulling it even tighter around herself. It would be nice to stay there and pretend that her cuddles were more than tipsy sleep habits, but he wouldnât sleep for many hours. Maybe he wouldnât sleep at all if he stayed here. He leaned down and pressed a kiss to Hannahâs cheek, whispering a good night. She turned back over, her arm stretching to where he wouldâve been if his restless mind had let him stay.Â
Will didnât bother wandering the halls anymore. He knew where he had to go to settle his mind. He walked directly to the back of the house, down a long hall to an old sunroom that had been closed off and redesigned by his mother. All these years later, he couldnât think of it as anything other than âMomâs Room.â In the past few monthsâsince Madison and Jonâhe had finally come to understand why she loved it so.
The room had picture windows perfect for viewing the expanse of the yard and the woods beyond it but also a fireplace for the chilly nights. His mother designed it so she could go from reading in the natural sunlight to reading by the firelight. There was no television or phone, only a desk nestled into a nook opposite the picture windows and a small stereo sheâd never let Jonathan upgrade. He turned the system on now, hearing the whir of the CD in its cradle. It was weird to think there were people whoâd never known that sound. Wilderness Weekend filled the space, loud enough for him to relax into the melodies heâd long ago memorized but quiet enough that he wouldnât bother anyone and no one would bother him.
He ran his finger across the deskânot a speck of dust. His mother had always kept her laptop and stack upon stack of papers there. She kept information about the various charities she and Jonathan contributed to and lists of key members and prominent clientsâeverything she needed as a wife of the wealthy. It sat empty now, all of her responsibilities long ago assigned to an assistant. Though the room was cleaned weekly, it was otherwise left untouched, a relic of another life.
âI thought Iâd find you here.â
Perfect. Madison.
âYou donât look happy to see me,â she said, shutting the door behind her.
Will touched his wedding band, kneading the metal as if willing Madison to turn around and forget theyâd ever been a thing. Harsh had been his perpetual tone with Madison for months, but when he committed to Hannah, he made a promise to himself that he would go for simply standoffish, if not cold. He didnât have to like Madison, but he was moving forward with his life, and he couldnât properly do that if he was stuck in the past. That was why the next words out of his mouth werenât âleave me alone.â
âThank you for not saying anything to Hannah about us.â His voice stuck on every part of that sentence. He hadnât thanked Madison for anythingânot even passing the creamer at brunchâsince everything happened. It had been a small act of defiance that made him feel the teensiest bit better, petty as it might have been.
âOf course. Though I donât know how long you can get away with keeping that secret.â She paused, studying him. âYou are planning on telling her, right?â
He had planned on telling her on the drive up, once theyâd arrived, or any time in the last two weeks. But when was the appropriate time to tell his wife her sister-in-law was also her bajingo sister, a homewrecker, and the person who had utterly destroyed his life? He couldnât bear the look that would cross her face the moment the truth came outânot from Hannah. She was the only important person in his life who didnât pity him like that, who still believed only great things for him.
âHannah likes you,â he said. âSheâs excited to have another woman to help her, and I quote, ânavigate the intricacies of the Thorne boys.ââ
âThatâs notââ
âCome on, Madison. What if the situation was reversed?â He met her eyes, which were locked on him. It had been so long since heâd really looked at her, but they were the same eyesâ still adorably wide and mesmerizing green.
âYeah, yeah, Iâd hate me.â
He looked away, his stomach roiling. This wasnât him. This couldnât be himâagreeing with Madison, keeping secrets. All that lying was what had gotten him here. Hannah deserved the truth. âIâm going to tell her.â
Without him realizing it, Madison had crossed the room. She stood inches from him. âI wonât say anything, William. Not unless she says something first.â
âWhy?â He wouldnât have questioned anyone else, but meddling was one of Madisonâs specialties, and the sanctity of commitments was not high on her priority list. She had barely shown any remorse for her actions both to and with Will. Her hand had slipped from one Thorne to the next, and that was that. Except in the middle of the night when she had clearly missed the younger model.
âWhatever you may think, I do care about you.â Will braced for Madisonâs touch, but her  hand didnât move from the arm of the chair. âAnd if Hannah makes you happy, then Iâm happy for you.â
He almost believed her. But Madison was ever the actress. The glint in her eye hinted at ulterior motives. He could guess at them, but he couldnât go down that road anymore. It only led to more despair and lies and messiness. He would warn Hannah about Madison. It had only been a day. It wasnât like the two women were exchanging friendship bracelets.
âDo you think...â she said, hedging. Madison never hedged. âDo you think your mother wouldâve hated me?â
Had they been in any other room, it wouldâve been as far out in left field as you could get. But she knew why his wanderings always brought him there. Madison knew everything.
âI donât know,â he said after several seconds of silence. The question had crossed his mind, but heâd never come up with a sound answer. Hating Madison betrayed Jonâloving her hurt Will. It was a lose-lose situation. He was glad Mom wasnât here to decide between her sons.
âDo you hate me?â
Will crossed the room to the picture window and stared into the darkness. âLetâs not do this, Madison.â
âSo, you do hate me,â she said, and he swore there was melancholy in her voice, a quiver to the statement that didnât fit.
âNo good would come from my answering that question,â he said, trying to be diplomatic. What answer could she have possibly expected? Of course he hated her. He hated her in the way he could only despise someone he had lovedâdeeply, completely, and sometimes not at all. âYouâre about to be my sister-in-law, so whether I hate you or not is irrelevant.â
âItâs not irrelevant to me.â
He turned to face her, relieved to find her standing by the doorway. Madison might be a meddler, but she also knew when to fold. âI hated you a little less today.â
WILL DIDNâT KNOW HE could have an emotional hangover, but after only a day and a half in the Hamptons, his head felt like it was in a vise grip, and he was literally itchy. Heâd woken up to an empty bed and a note that Hannah had gone to find sustenance. She wasnât in the kitchen, though according to Renata, sheâd been there earlier. Will sat down by himself in the dining room with a heaping plate of eggs, bacon, and two full English muffins slathered with orange marmalade. He shot Hannah a quick text before diving in. He didnât often get to claim this table as his own. It was rejuvenating. Bit by bit, he was taking back what Jon and Madison had stolen.
As the first sips of coffee hit his system, his head started to clear. He tried to cast off the memory that had been haunting him since his late-night conversation with Madison. Memorial Day Weekend, during the first big party of the summer, heâd found Madison and Jon locked in an embrace deep within Renataâs kitchen, the sounds of the party muffled by all the stainless steel. Jonâs pants hung low on him, and Madisonâs dress was scrunched up over her hips. Will had dropped the bottle of wine heâd retrieved, shatteringâ
âMorning, little brother,â Jon said, sitting down across from Will.
Will blinked twice, snapping out of it. He shouldâve known better. There was no being alone at the Thorne mansion, and even when he was alone, the weight of expectation was a constant companion. And Jon had built-in Will radar. If Will wasnât hiding out in his roomâas far away from his family as he could getâJon found him. Will knew what his brother was trying to do. He also knew it would never work. There was no going back if he married herâwhen he married her. Jon thought that the fact that his love for Madison was the real thing would make everything better. Maybe it would to the outside world, but to Will, that only made it more unforgiveable.
âAnd now my appetite is gone,â Will said, piling his silverware on his plate.
âCan I have your muffin, then?â Jon reached across the table, but Will pulled the plate back toward himself. âCome on. Donât act like a child. You sat in a public space.â
Will wanted to argue moreâhis brother couldâve kept walking, found literally any other place to sitâbut he also wanted to finish his breakfast. He glanced at his phone, still no word from Hannah. Maybe sheâd made a run for it. It wouldnât be the first time his family had scared a woman off in a day. He picked his silverware back up and scanned the latest headlines in hopes of deterring his brother from further conversation.
Three bites into his eggs, Jon cleared his throat.
That couldnât be good. Will looked up expectantly.
Jon stared at him, his expression hesitant and curious. âHannah seems cool,â he said after a beat. âYou two are a good fit.â
âWe think so,â Will said, returning to his breakfast. He couldnât be nice to Jon. Once he opened that door, Jon would lodge himself inside and wouldnât give an inch. Well enough wasnât in Jonâs repertoire, and the longer Will shared a room with Jonâliterally and metaphoricallyâthe more likely he was to punch him in the face.
âI was thinking, you know, now that youâre marriedââ Jon paused, uncertainty flashing across his face before he plowed on. âMaybe you would consider giving a speech at the wedding or the rehearsal dinner?â
What. The. Fuck?
Will took a breath then another. He counted to ten, twenty, and thirty, giving his brother a chance to take it back, giving himself the self-control to not leap across the table. Jon couldnât be serious. And yet, it was clear from the open expression on his face that he thought it was a reasonable request.
Will ran a hand along his forehead, stopping to massage his temple. He tried to keep his tone as neutral as possible and devoid of the well of sarcasm brewing under his chest. âNo, I will not give a speech at your wedding.â