That was a very long story that wouldn’t make her come out any better in the telling of it.
“I...I’ll just wait here and see if he comes back. And I’ll pay for that.” She gestured to the chipped wood, hoping it wasn’t all the coins she had. The little sack Ágnes slipped her had felt like riches when she’d first held it, but now she could feel how quickly coins slipped away and how hard they would be to replenish. She touched her mark again. Those calculations had never crossed her mind in the church. Asten provided for those who served Them so they could focus on more important work.
“Don’t worry about that, just get on. His people are like pigeons. One starts strutting around thinking there’s food and the whole flock shows up squawking.” She waved Csilla away like one of the birds, and Csilla stepped back.
“Do you have any idea where he is?”
The woman looked over her worn clothes, the money sack in her fingers all too clearly all she had in the world, and her face softened. “Try the cemetery. When he doesn’t come home, he’s talking to ghosts.”
The dead had their own cathedral. The limited space available to cemeteries within the walls of Silgard had led to the soaring limestone and marble towers that interred ashes. When Csilla stepped into the cemetery, it was like the rest of the city had been sucked away and this was an empty quarter where only the delivered were welcome.
Mihály’s black coat was stark against the white of the tomb. He lay with his forehead on the stone as still as if he’d been carved from it. His lips weren’t moving. Odd, to be in a cemetery and offering no prayers.
“Izir… Mihály?” she said softly as she approached. He lifted his head to look at the tomb, face momentarily brightening, then over at her, where his eyes darkened again.
“Csilla?” His confusion softened into a wan smile. He looked disappointed that it was only her speaking. Perhaps his ghosts talked back. “I knew you’d find me. Or have you come to kill me again? It’s a very convenient location.”
Was that a joke? When she didn’t reply, he rubbed his eyes and looked at the cloud-dusted sky, face surprised. “What time is it?”
“After lunch, I think.” She was so wrapped up in her head she hadn’t heard any bells. “Are you alright?”
He gave a little shake of his head and straightened, placing one hand on the marble wall. “Fine. Perfectly fine.” He tilted his head, looking down at her in a way that made her stomach squirm.
“I’m not here to kill you,” she said as he opened his mouth again. “I need your help.”
His hand pressed harder against the stone.
“I spared your life,” she continued. “And I warned you to leave, even if you didn’t. You have to help.”
“Not even the priests dare command Asten’s chosen.” But there was a slight smile on his lips and a sweetness to his voice that called her to step closer. “Go back to the church. You belong there. Or maybe in the seat of the Incarnate if you’re so bold?”
She cringed at his words. She was being terrible and didn’t even have a shadow soul to blame for her rashness. But this was the only door open to her. She stood up straighter and tried again.
“They won’t have me.” The wind picked up, plucking at her cloak, and for a moment she froze. The touch was too much like spectral fingers.
“That is a problem.” He was looking back at the stone now, a long finger trailing the cold surface.
“So help me.“ She couldn’t keep the pleading out of her voice. “You said you wanted to show me your research.” That had to be true. If not, there wasn’t even one person left in the city who needed her. “I’ll go with you. I’m ready now.”
Well, maybe not ready. Just willing for a lack of options.
“You’ve come here asking my help, but only on your terms? Cheeky.” He reached out and tapped her nose, laughed when she started and blushed. “Well then. Tell me, Csilla. What do you want me to do for you?”
His eyes were still indulgent, amused. She held his gaze, waiting for the moment the patronizing would stop.
“There’s a killer in Silgard.”
“So I’ve heard. So I told you, in fact.” His smile turned cutting. “Is that what the church was getting at? They say I encourage disobedience. Make it so people don’t mind sinning quite so much.”
“You do...” It wouldn’t be much of a stretch to think someone who listened to rumors that dead souls weren’t lost wouldn’t feel as much guilt about killing. Or that the kind of person who was interested in heresy would also study demons.
He put a finger under her chin, raised her gaze to meet his as the point of contact burned. “I give people hope, Csilla.”
She swallowed. She couldn’t fault him for that. “But this isn’t about you and the church. I want to catch them. The killer.”
Something glittered in Mihály’s eyes. “You think that’s going to make the church care about you?”
Tears pricked her throat, and she wasn’t even sure why. She didn’t blame him for the doubt in his voice. She barely had any faith in herself. But she also didn’t have a choice. It was going to take an amazing good for the church to open its arms to her again. Something like saving the city.
“It might. And I do need help. You hear more from the people than I do. You know more than I do. And I didn’t kill you.” It couldn’t hurt to remind him.
He stood silent for a moment, filling the whole of her vision.
“I do want you to see what I do,” he said, voice softer. “And I think it will benefit both of us.”
“And you’ll help me?” It came out as a plea. He still hadn’t agreed to anything.
He placed a hand on her head, the way priests gave benediction to the small. “That very much depends on you.”
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Csilla’s feet stilled as they approached the gate and she touched her mark, measuring the distance between her faith and Mihály’s ideas.
