She'd let him make love to her, finally, in those hours when they'd huddled together in their own warm, intimate space under a tarpaulin while the ice storm raged overhead. There had been no words, only gentle touches and long pauses, and the final turning to him to offer him her mouth.

Zenith had wanted WolfStar to hurt her, to hurry her, or even to force her, for then she would have been able to loathe him. Then, she thought, she would have been able to turn her back on WolfStar, and look to StarDrifter.

But WolfStar had not hurt her, or hurried her, and he certainly had not forced her.

He had, unbelievably, been hesitant and unsure.

After they had done, Zenith had cried, and WolfStar had held her and comforted her, and Zenith knew she would learn to enjoy him and desire him as a lover.

He was WolfStar, but something, somewhere within him had changed.

Or is it me? Zenith wondered, and had to bow her head and blink back her tears, because she didn't want to change, she didn't want to respond to WolfStar, she only wanted to run to StarDrifter and let him hold her, and let him protect her from all the hurts of the outside world.

And what hurt most of all was that that could never, never be.

Not now.

Zenith knew StarDrifter would accept her without question, recrimination or a single hint of revulsion.

It was she who could not now go back. A chasm had been created the instant she allowed WolfStar back into her body, and it was a chasm Zenith knew she would never be able to bridge.

She lowered her head still further and wept.

Now she had no-one to loathe but herself.

It was quiet. The Ravensbundmen had finished their tea and were huddled as still as rocks under enveloping blankets. The peasant couple were asleep in each other's arms. WolfStar had drifted into a deep sleep, and lay half slouched against the wheel of the cart, half against a pile of blankets. Of them all, only the Lake Guard stood wakeful, their eyes relaxed but nevertheless watchful.

A hand fell softly on her arm, and Zenith jerked fully awake from her light doze. She opened her eyes and saw Azhure, crouched down beside her.

Azhure put a finger to her lips, and then pointed to a spot ten or twelve paces distant from the fire.

Come with me.

Zenith hesitated, glanced at WolfStar who had not stirred, then rose grudgingly and followed Azhure.

The last thing she felt like right now was a mother and daughter chat.

The Lake Guardsmen followed her with their eyes, but did not move after her, and Zenith wondered at what point they would. When would she become so associated with WolfStar (so much an extension of WolfStar) that she would require watching in her own right?

"I needed to talk with you," Azhure said as she drew Zenith close to the first row of ghost trees.

Above their heads the leaves moved gracefully, humming a sweet, soothing lullaby.

"So it would seem," Zenith said, her tone unresponsive. She would not meet her mother's eyes.

"I don't blame you for your reaction, Zenith," Azhure said. She reached out and took both her daughter's hands. "I cannot say how much I regret what I said and did in Sigholt when —"

"Then don't."

"Zenith ..." Azhure stopped, not knowing what to say or how to say it. "StarDrifter has told us —"

"He had no right! None/"

"He is Axis' father, and he is a friend so dear to me that I can hardly bear his grief," Azhure said evenly. "And you are my daughter, and WolfStar is my father. We are all tangled up in a web so intricate, and so intricately painful, that no-one within the web can escape the grief and heartbreak of another. I have every right to talk to you about this, Zenith. What you do affects us all —"

"Oh, so I am to be blamed for everyone's pain, am I? What about you? What about your and Axis'

abandonment of me, and of DragonStar and RiverStar, while you pampered Caelum and then fled to your godly pinnacle of accomplishment and starry meditations? Don't speak to me of intricate webs!"

Azhure's hands tightened, stopping Zenith from pulling completely away.

"Then please, please, talk to me as your friend! Forget the fact that I am your mother! Talk to another woman who has felt so much of what —"

Zenith turned her face away.

Azhure lowered her face as she thought desperately of what she could say next. Finally, she looked at Zenith again, tears coursing down her cheeks.

"Zenith, you are right to lay so much blame on my shoulders, as on Axis'. There is nothing I can say or do now to negate what we — what I — did to you. I can't even ask for your forgiveness. But, Zenith, I just want to help. Please ... please ..."

Something in Azhure's voice finally made Zenith turn her face back to her mother. She stared, closed her eyes briefly, then stepped forward and embraced her mother.

Azhure clung to her, sobbing, and Zenith found herself soothing her mother when all she wanted was to be soothed herself.

And then, magically, she was, for Azhure had pulled her down to the ground, and was holding her and rocking her and murmuring to her the words that Zenith had needed to hear for years, and in that embrace Zenith felt so treasured, and so loved, that she could hardly bear it, and she broke down and wept.

By the fireside, WolfStar opened his eyes, and stared. What was that bitch saying to Zenith?

In time, Azhure quieted her daughter, and wiped away her own tears, and they sat themselves more comfortably and talked.

"If I could somehow be with StarDrifter," Zenith finally said, very softly, "then, believe me, I would.

He is a man I should be able to be happy with. But now it is too late. Far too late."

"How so — too late?" Azhure's fingers slowly stroked back the hair from Zenith's forehead.

"I have committed myself to WolfStar now."

Committed? "You have bedded with him?"

Zenith tensed, then nodded.

"Oh, my dear, that means nothing. StarDrifter will not hold that against you. That fact will not stand between you."

"It is far more than that, Azhure. I feel a companionship with WolfStar that I cannot feel with StarDrifter. And I feel a responsibility for WolfStar that —"

"Oh, I don't believe that! Zenith, all you have to do is walk away from WolfStar! You do not have to become StarDrifter's lover if you do not want to, but for the gods' sakes, girl ... WolfStar is not the man for my daughter!"

Zenith smiled, wondering if she should remind her mother about the time Azhure had all but pushed Zenith into WolfStar's arms, then decided against it. That was so long ago, and so many heartbreaks ago.