Immediately, the light faded, the music faded, the world faded. Voran’s eyes widened and he gasped in pleasure. She knew that now the Sirin sang for him alone. She had made her choice, and the Sirin had accepted it. Voran rode off without looking back. Lebía wept.
If man is to brave the Heights of Aer, to face the Throne of the Most High, he must endure the seven baptisms of fire. The soul-bond is the first baptism of fire. The second is the passage from Earth to the Lows of Aer. The third is the shedding of the skin of the old man. The fourth is the first death. The fifth is the great sacrifice. The sixth is the second death. The seventh…is a mystery.
From “On the Emulation of the Powers”
(The Sayings, Book VII, 7:1-7)
Chapter 8
The Sirin
The song of the Sirin rang out, drowning out the noise of the pilgrims. Everything else faded from Voran’s mind. It was even more intense than in the forest the first time. He left his horse in the hands of one of the warriors. He felt it would be somehow blasphemous to encounter a Sirin on horseback.
“Lead them on,” he said, not even realizing who it was he was talking to. “I’m going to take a look from the top of that hill.”
Voran climbed, slogging through cold mud to a stand of birches leaning upward along the incline of the hill toward the sun. Their exposed roots held the earth like grubby hands. Voran slipped over them, finding the way harder than it looked. As he reached the head of the drum-hill, he cleared the line of trees and entered a small clearing, in the middle of which stood three white birches, taller than the rest, still clad in autumn gold. His Sirin perched on top of the middle tree and sang. Voran found that his cheeks were wet with tears, and his heart sang in unison with the Sirin. Approaching her was nearly impossible, as though ten strong men were pushing back against him with all their force.
He could go no further and went down on his knees, the linen shirt under his mail sweat-soaked and sticking to his skin. The Sirin no longer chanted, but Voran feared to look at her. She flew down, alighting in front of him, so that her face was directly in line with his. Mastering himself, he forced his eyes to lock with hers. Something inside him shifted. He heard a soft, regular thumping, as of another heart, and a small flame came to life in the center of his chest, radiating warmth to the rest of his body. He heard many musics—joyful, haunting, terrifying—all at the same time, but with no disharmony. He was covered in golden flame, warm and dew-like, and he did not burn. His mind lurched with terror; his heart raced with joy.
“Voran.” Even when she spoke, she sang. “I am named Lyna.”
Voran could find no words for a long time, content only to look into the abyss of her eyes. It was never easy for him to look into another person’s eyes. It was dangerously intimate, and he was squeamish about that kind of intimacy. Looking into her eyes was like staring from a peak at a river at the bottom of a valley, jumping down without closing his eyes, and then plunging into the river, only to find it had no bottom. There was no single word for it.
After a long time, he retreated from her eyes and saw that she had an oval face framed with auburn curls, a mouth that seemed incapable of laughter, an expression of austere sorrow, like a living statue. Under her collarbone, undulating blue-green feathers shimmered down to her golden feet and talons and ended at the black tips of her outstretched wings.
“What a blessed and cursed day this is, Voran.” Her wings moved with her speech like human hands. “Sirin and man are joined once more, though it comes at the time of testing.”
“Why have you waited so long to greet me, Lyna?” His voice sounded crude compared to the music of her voice, like two rocks tapping each other.
“My falcon, the love of the Sirin is a blazing fire. We cannot force it on anyone. For generations, none have been ready for the soul-bond. It is a glorious thing, but it is heavy, as any true love must be.”
Never had confession of love sounded so simply, and yet if the earth gaped and volcanoes erupted around him, he would not have been surprised. After the soul-bond, he felt nothing could ever surprise him again.
“Lyna, can I stay here with you? Must I continue my journey to the Living Water?”
“You do not know what you are saying, my falcon. No love can exist where there is no forward movement. If you stayed here too long with me, you would be consumed. You are not ready for the full bond.”
“There is so much I do not understand, Lyna. So many questions. What is happening to Vasyllia? With the Covenant Tree?”
“The tree’s fire is fading, Voran.”
“Is it the Covenant, Lyna? All we Vasylli remember is hints of old stories.”
“They contain much truth, those old stories. The Covenant was a simple thing. Vasyllia was to protect the Outer Lands against all darkness, caring for and nurturing all peoples. In return, Adonais girded them with power. Nothing could touch Vasyllia. The Harbinger summoned the fire that confirmed the Covenant. While the aspen is on fire, the Covenant stood. When he returned, he witnessed the covenant broken. The fire will fade until it is no more.”
Voran’s heart chilled. The Harbinger. The greatest of Adonais’s allies; a name never spoken above a whisper, so great was the reverence attached to it. Did she mean that the Pilgrim was the Harbinger? It would explain his strange powers.
“No one in Vasyllia believes in the Covenant, Lyna. Even I find it hard to fathom with my mind alone.”
“Do you wonder, then, that no Vasylli is bound to a Sirin anymore? In the time of Lassar, nearly every Vasylli was bound to a Sirin. Five hundred years later, in the reign of Cassían, less than half were. Now, four hundred years after the death of Cassían, no one seeks the old beauty.”
“How could something this important be forgotten, Lyna?”
She was silent for an age. She seemed to be searching for the right words.
“When love grows cold, my falcon, eternal truths darken.”
“You are saying that we have not done our part to care for the Outer Lands? But we have enough troubles in our Vasyllia. The separation of the reaches—it is a terrible thing. How can we be held responsible for the welfare of outsiders, if we cannot keep our own house in order?”
Lyna sighed heavily and shook her head. Her curls danced in the wind.
“Your own heart can answer that question, Voran. But there is so much noise there, so much confusion.”
“Lyna, you must speak to me as though I were a child. Please, I want to understand. Be patient with me.”
“Yes, my falcon, I will try. Recall the image of Lassar’s Vasyllia that the Pilgrim showed you. Was there anything unusual about the people you saw?”
“They were more joyful than any people I have ever seen.”
“Do you imagine that their Vasyllia had fewer problems than your Vasyllia? You would be a fool if you did. You know your histories. Lassar was a man of war; only after many trials, much blood, did the Harbinger come to him with an offer of Covenant. And yet, the joy in their faces. You saw it. Joy like that comes from only one source. Pain.”
Voran nodded, remembering his talks with the potter.
“Yes, pain. Did you not suffer pain during the Ordeal of Silence? Were you not rewarded for that pain a hundred-fold? Does not the artist suffer his creation? Do you not think all those people you saw suffered pain in the making of those works of beauty whose loss you so lamented?”
Voran was surprised that he did not wonder at Lyna’s deep knowledge of his thoughts and emotions. Truly the bond they shared was soul-deep.
“Tell me, Voran. What is the most beautiful thing a man can mold and form, though it is not of his own creation?”
