This makes me chuckle. “Why?”
Junichi sits back against the couch, still smiling at me. “Because it feels more tangible to him now. They’re actually going to have a kid in a few months. Before, it was all hypothetical. Plus, Nino said he feels pressure because Haruka has been adamant about him being the one to give the sample.”
I grin because it’s true. But I don’t say anything. Patient privacy and all that.
“I have this feeling that he really wants the kid to look like Nino,” Junichi goes on. “It’s just funny to me. Haruka is so blasé about things—until the moment that he is not.”
I’m laughing because I have also noticed this. “He was razor sharp whenever we played shōgi together. You’d think he wouldn’t care about winning, but he definitely does.”
We rest in the moment, grinning at each other, but only briefly before I look away to fumble with something. Distracting myself from the warm feeling sweeping through my body.
“You’re in the attic today. Reading more of your mom’s journals?”
“Yeah, and I was. But I’m just looking at some of her things now. Going through boxes.”
“Have you spoken to your father about his heritage?” Junichi asks. “You said you were going to.”
“I-I did. He… he told me that his great-grandfather was third-generation.”
Junichi shakes his head. “Wow. You had it on both sides all along—”
“But I didn’t know! My father doesn’t feed and he never told me any of this.”
“I know, Jae.” Junichi’s gaze softens. “You don’t need to be defensive. I know. It’s alright.”
Jun never accuses me of lying, but I just… I get so defensive. My nature is getting all riled up, my skin feels hot and I’m honestly ready to hang up on him.
“I’m excited to see you next week,” Junichi says. “Are you looking forward to the wedding?”
When I swallow, it goes down thick, like there’s cotton in my throat. “Sure,” I lie. I can’t imagine what this is going to be like: how my body will react to him in person now that my senses are even sharper. It’s already this intense on a silly video call.
“Everyone wants to see you,” Junichi says. “Even Sydney told me he misses you and is looking forward to catching up. I miss you, too.”
Now it feels like there’s electricity running all across my skin—up my arms to my head and shoulders, down my torso and spine. It’s so intense and distracting, but I ignore it and nod. “I’m looking forward to seeing everyone. Is Sydney coming to the wedding?”
Junichi smiles. “He is. What are you doing this weekend? Your flight is on Monday?”
“Yes, and… I think Audrey is coming for a visit. She says she’s found a new recipe for cinnamon rolls and she wants to test them on me.”
“The Vampire Audrey. Does she make you call her that?”
I laugh, which is a nice distraction from everything swarming inside me. “No. She only introduces herself that way. She’s eccentric, for sure. She bought me a basket of the most delicious mangoes, but she refused to tell me where she got them from.”
Junichi shrugs. “Maybe she stole them?”
“Do vampires steal mangoes?”
“If there’s nothing better to do.”
I laugh at this because it sounds utterly ridiculous.
“Your aristocracy of one,” Junichi says. “They’re flocking to you. With mangoes.”
“I don’t think one of anything can be defined as a flock.”
He smirks. “Won’t be long now though. Soon, the right person will get wind of you and you’ll be featured in The New York Times, the BBC and the Vampire International News. I can already see the headlines—‘British Purebreds, They Exist.’”
“God, I hope not. Christ.”
“They’ll be beating down your door with baskets of stolen fruit.”
“Are you intentionally trying to make my anxiety flare up?” I smile. “Is this today’s objective?”
“No. Definitely not. I’m happy that I can make you smile and laugh, though. That’s a worthy objective for the day.”
I’m still smiling, and that warm, bubbly sensation keeps rushing over my skin and through me. I don’t know what to say when he’s like this—throwing flirty remarks at me. The old Jae would say something quick and cheeky in response. Unabashed.
When I think about myself back then and how confident I was, I laugh. Cyrus confessed his feelings to me confidently—absolutely certain that I would reciprocate. I felt haughty toward him then, but didn’t I turn around and do the exact same thing to Jun? Thank God I never actually told him how I feel. If I had, I wouldn’t be able to look him or myself in the face.
Cyrus had all his queer hopes and dreams wrapped up in me, and I had all my vampire ones weighted on Jun. I didn’t even realize how much I had let myself depend on him. It’s humiliating.
My tablet buzzes, and it’s my direct supervisor from the hospital. I hate to admit it, but I’m somewhat relieved. If I keep talking to him like this, I’ll get too comfortable and it’ll just be more painful for me later. “Hey, someone from the hospital is calling and I need to take it.”
“Sure. Enjoy your day. I’m happy you picked up, and I really look forward to seeing you, Jae.”
I nod, squelching and ignoring my nature inside me. “You too.”
