Gerry’s too dark hair and goatee. Gerry’s creams and lotions and cosmetics. What we’d been told: that Gerry had liked going after younger men. Maybe too young.
It was just like my Will Gower story: I’d been so focused on what I thought I knew that I’d made an assumption. The evidence had been right in front of me, but I’d misinterpreted it because I’d thought I’d known what it meant. Which, to be fair, I was in good company—it was a mystery novel classic for a reason.
“I know how we can find the killer,” I said. “And I know how we can lure them out. And I know how we can make it impossible for them to resist. But I’m going to need your help.” I took a breath. “Have you ever heard of somatotropin?”
Chapter 16
The next day passed in a blur. I drove all over town, talking to people, asking questions, requesting records, doing my due diligence to make sure my hunch was right. A large amount of that time—an ungodly amount, to be perfectly frank—I spent at the sheriff’s station. The rest of the Last Picks were busy too—Millie at Chipper, Indira at the fishermen’s market, Fox visiting studios and galleries. Keme was in charge of keeping an eye on Bobby, who seemed determined to avoid me at all costs (he literally turned around one time and walked in the other direction). Not that I blamed him. I was the one who’d goaded him into—into whatever he’d done. He was right to be angry with me.
That evening, I tried to stay busy. The house was painfully quiet. There was no sign of Bobby (and he wasn’t answering his phone), and Indira had long since retired to the coach house. I tried to play Super Smash Bros, but I kept getting killed. (Okay, I probably would have gotten killed even if I hadn’t been so distracted.) I tried to write, but I just sat there, staring at a blank document, cursing my ancestors (specifically, my parents). I tried to read, but my eyes kept falling shut. So I could concentrate. Because I was thinking. With my eyes shut.
A noise woke me, and for a single, disoriented moment, I didn’t know where I was. Then I made out the familiar shapes: the chandelier, the TV, the built-in shelves. The billiard room’s darkness was softened by the ambient glow of LED power lights on various electronics, but it was dark enough. When I checked my phone, the clock said it was past two in the morning. The sound came again—the squeak of rubber soles on the hardwood floor. I fumbled with the lamp and winced as light bloomed.
When I could see again, I was looking at Jen Kang, from the surf camp. She was dressed in black. And she was holding a gun.
I had a certain amount of self-interest invested in the gun, but I forced myself to look at her face, to see the signs. The overdeveloped jaw was the clearest one, but her brow as well, and the acne scars were there too. Her free hand was pressed to her thigh. A big hand. I should have noticed that before.
“Hi, Jen,” I said.
She moved her mouth soundlessly once. Sweat glistened on her forehead, even though the house was cool. When she tried again, she managed to get the words out, but they were rough. “Where is it?”
“Where’s what?”
“Don’t do that!” The hand with the gun wavered, and in a more controlled voice, she said, “Don’t. The files. Where are they?”
“What files?”
“Gerry’s blackmail files. I know he had duplicates, and I know you found them. Where are they?”
“That’s why you—”
“Yes.” The word sounded thick in her throat. “Yes, that’s why I killed him. Because he was blackmailing me.”
“You know, just one time, I would like to be the one who explains everything.”
Jen, though, was on a roll. “The weasel waited until he knew he had me hooked. We’d started construction on the surf camp. I’d invested everything I had, plus the loans. I thought he was just a kooky old guy who liked to look at the eye candy. And then one night, he came to my apartment and told me.”
“He knew you were using—”
“HGH. Yeah. He figured it out somehow.”
I should have figured it out sooner too. Not only because Gerry’s laptop had showed a recent search for somatotropin, another name for human growth hormone. At the time, I’d written it off as part of Gerry’s quest to stay young. But I should have noticed it in Jen. Her age. Her attempts to stay competitive. The acromegaly—the continued growth of bones in her face and hands and, I was sure, her feet too. It was a distinctive look. And, of course, any business partner of Gerry’s should have been at the top of my list.
“I tried to blow it off,” Jen said, “but I didn’t fool him. And then I tried to explain. He didn’t understand. It’s hard enough to be a woman in this sport. It’s even harder to be queer. And every year, it’s a little harder to get up on the board, a little harder to stay up, a little harder to do everything that used to be easy. It wasn’t too bad when we did the surf camp once a year; I could get by. But a permanent surf camp? Running this place year-round? I’m the owner. I’m the lead instructor. Who’s going to come if I’m just another old lady trying to relive my glory days.”
I had my own doubts about those glory days—my guess was that Jen had always had an excuse for why she needed just a little help. But that wasn’t really the point. I said, “And Gerry wanted you to pay.”
“To pay? He wanted everything. He was going to take all of it. Sure, I’d own the surf camp in name, but it would be his. He was going to turn it into—into a kiddie park. An attraction. One more stupid perk for his planned community. He was going to scrap all the stuff that made it important, all the stuff I’d worked for. He told me to forget about all that gay stuff; he had a better idea. Like that was the end of the story. Everything I’d worked for, and he was going to take it away. If he talked, my reputation would be ruined. Nobody would come here to learn how to surf, not from me. It would be over before it started. He was going to ruin everything.”
“And then you saw your chance.”
Jen shook her head—not at my words, but at something else. A memory maybe. Or some part of her that still protested. “He was sloshed. You saw him. You saw how he was; he couldn’t keep his hands off you. And I’d been thinking all day about when Nate tackled him at the beach. Seeing that, seeing Gerry go down, seeing him get hurt.” She stopped. She flexed the fingers of her free hand. “I couldn’t stop thinking about it. About how good it felt. And then it happened again. Bobby. Good old Bobby. He got right in Gerry’s face and let that ancient fart have it. God, it felt so good. I thought, this is how it would feel if he died. This is how it would feel, like this.” Her voice took on an unbelieving note. “And then he walked straight out toward the cliffs. It was like—like someone meant for it to happen. Like it was supposed to be this way. Everybody else was busy with the party. Nobody noticed when I left. Gerry didn’t even know I was following him. He was angry. He was embarrassed—humiliated, I guess. I could tell from how he walked. He didn’t have any idea where he was going—he was just walking, just trying to get away. He walked right up to the edge of the cliff. He was swaying; he could hardly stay upright. I didn’t even have to push him that hard.”
The silence that came after was thicker, deeper. She was looking at me, but I didn’t think she was seeing me. And then her eyes focused, and her expression flattened out until she looked like a different person. Her fingers flexed around the grip of the gun.
“Where are the files?”
“It wasn’t just the drugs, though, was it?” I tried to keep my eyes on her face, but the gun kept pulling my gaze back. “That wasn’t the only thing he had on you.”
She pulled her head back to the edge of the lamp’s light. Shadows swallowed up her eyes.
“Because you killed—”
“Yes.” The word was small and fragile. “Yes, I killed Ali.”
Once, I thought. Just once I wanted to get a chance to explain.
“It was an accident. We were arguing. I was so angry.” She stopped. She was nothing more than a silhouette now, but the dry click of her throat was clear in the quiet. “She wouldn’t get up. And there was so much blood.” Her voice frayed on the last word, and silence rolled in on another dark tide. “I don’t know how he found out. He said he had evidence.”
“You faked the—”
“The vandalism. Yes.” Her voice was growing stronger. “For weeks. That was his idea too.”
“To make sure people thought she was still alive. That’s why no one could figure out how the cameras kept getting disabled, how she kept sneaking past the surfers who were standing guard. Because you were doing it, so that when she finally did ‘disappear’—”
“I’d have the perfect alibi.” Her breathing was smoothing out. That dry click came again in her throat. “After…Gerry, I thought I’d done everything perfectly. I made sure I didn’t leave any footprints. And I knew, with the party as wild as it had been, no one would notice I’d been gone. It had only been a few minutes, and if I nudged the right person, I was sure they’d ‘remember’ I’d been with them all night. Once the police had left, I broke a few windows. It was almost dawn by that point. I didn’t know the medical examiner had said it was an accident; I thought the sheriff would make the connection to Ali.”
