“Me,” said Sasha.
Dmitrii said, “I have a hundred men who could do it. Why you?”
“I am the best fighter,” said Sasha. He wasn’t boasting, but stating a fact. “I am a monk, a servant of God. I am your best chance.”
Dmitrii said, “I need you at my side, Sasha, not—”
“Cousin,” said Sasha fiercely. “I broke my father’s heart, leaving home as a boy. I have not been true to my vows, for I could never
stay quiet at the monastery. But never have I betrayed the soil that bore me; I have kept faith with it and defended it. I will defend it now, before both our hosts.”
Vladimir said, “He is right. It might make all the difference.
Frightened men are beaten men, you know it as well as I.”
Grudgingly he added, “And he fights well.”
Dmitrii still looked unwilling. But he looked again at the host opposing them, half-obscured now by the dying light. “I will not deny you,” said Dmitrii. “You are the best of us. The men know it.” He paused again. “Tomorrow morning then,” he said heavily. “If the Tatars are willing. I will send a messenger. But you are not to get yourself killed, Sasha.”
“Never,” said Sasha, and smiled. “My sisters would be angry.”
IT WAS ALMOST FULL DARK when Sasha left the princes for the night.
Dmitrii’s messenger had not yet returned, but he needed to sleep, against whatever the day brought.
He had no ger, just a fire of his own, a patch of dry earth, and his horse hobbled near. When he got closer, he saw the golden mare standing next to his own Tuman.
Vasya had built up his fire and seated herself beside it. She looked weary and sad. The fey, mad creature of the night at Kolomna was gone.
“Vasya,” he said. “Where have you been?”
“Harrying an army, in the company of the most ill-natured of devils,” said Vasya. “Learning yet again the limits of what I can do.”
Her voice cracked.
“I think,” said Sasha gently, “that you’ve done too much.”
She rubbed her face, still slumped on the log between the horses’
feet. “I don’t know if it was enough. I even tried to creep in and kill
the general, but he is well guarded now—learned his lesson after I got Vladimir away. I—I didn’t want to die trying. I set fire to his tent though.”
Sasha said firmly, “It was enough. You gave us a chance when there was none before. It was enough.”
“I tried setting men afire,” she said, with choked confession, the words spilling out. “I tried—while the Bear laughed. But I couldn’t.
He said that it is hardest to do magic on creatures that have a mind of their own and I didn’t know enough.”
“Vasya—”
“But I set other things afire. Bowstrings and wagons. I laughed, to see them burn. And—they killed a woman. A woman in labor.
Because their supply was spoiled, and they were angry and hungry.”
Sasha said, “God rest her spirit then. But Vasya—stop. We have a chance. Your courage gave it to us, and your blood. It is enough. Do not lament what you cannot change.”
Vasya said nothing, but when her distracted eyes fell on his fire, the flames leaped high, even though there was precious little wood in it to burn, and her fists clenched so that her nails bit into her palms.
“Vasya,” said Sasha sharply. “Enough of that. When did you last eat?”
She thought. “I—yesterday morning,” she said. “I could not bear to wait and go back into Midnight, so Pozhar and I came here as the crow flies, staying out of sight of Mamai’s army.”
“Very well,” said Sasha firmly. “I am going to make soup. Yes, here.
I have my own supply and I am capable—we do not have serving-women in the Lavra. You are going to eat and then sleep. Everything else can wait.”
It was a measure of her weariness that she didn’t argue.
They didn’t speak much, while the water boiled, and when he dished out her food, she said, almost inaudibly, “Thank you,” and swallowed it down. Three bowls, with flatbread of flour paste on a hot rock, and a little color had come back into her face.
He handed her his cloak. “Go to sleep,” he said.
“What about you?”
“Tonight, I mean to pray.” He thought of telling her then, about what the next day might hold. But he didn’t. She looked so worn, so tired. The last thing she needed was a night of broken sleep, afraid for him. And it was possible the Tatars would refuse the challenge.
