“Are you saying he meant something else?”
“If you didn’t spell out your feelings, why would you assume he had?”
“Because his brother—”
Ian smiles and wiggles his eyebrows. “Bingo. His brother said something. Not Christian.”
“But his brother has to know how he feels!”
“I didn’t know everything till you told me.”
“You live across an ocean. They live together. Erik has been staying with Christian since his wife left him.”
Ian shrugs. “Doesn’t mean Christian told him how he felt.”
I stare at him and speak plainly. “Nor did he tell me, for that matter.”
He laughs. “You’re making my point exactly.”
“And what’s that?”
“You’re so tough, and you’re doing everything to erect skyscrapers around you so you don’t get blindsided again. Newsflash—it doesn’t hurt any less if you have walls. Once someone gets around them, it still hurts if they don’t feel the same as you.”
I roll my eyes. “That’s helpful.”
He smiles and reaches for my hand. “You’re already in deep.” He takes a beat then shrugs happily. “But it also feels pretty damn good when someone you love feels the same.”
“I don’t think he does.”
“Men don’t usually want to talk about us unless they feel something,” he says, sketching air quotes as he tosses Christian’s words back at me.
I’m not talking about paperwork. I’m talking about us.
My stomach roils, and the prospect of waiting till Friday or Saturday to find out what he wants to discuss sounds like an eternity.
Ian lets go of my hand. “Enough about boys. I have something for you.” He reaches into his pocket and removes a blue velvet bag, then slides it over to me. “Picked it up at a little shop.”
I open the bag to find a silver chain with a dangly Eiffel Tower. I laugh and put it on, letting the icon of France sit next to my taxicab. “It’s perfect.”
And it gives me strength. It reminds me that no matter what happens with Christian, I have my brother an ocean away. Back home in France, I have great friends, a wonderful life, and a fabulous business I’ve rebuilt.
That’s why my heels are touching the New York sidewalk later that afternoon. Because I made it through a dark time. I turned my agency around, and it’s thriving again, thanks to new deals with accounts like the Luxe.
Whatever happens with Christian, I’ll be fine, walls or no walls.
I’ve got this.
38CHRISTIAN
Erik walks a little taller, a little prouder. The sun is sinking in the sky as he reaches the banks of the river, where I stare into the water.
“Do you ever think this river was meant to be here?” I say, turning to Erik. He shields his eyes from the sun with his hand.
“I’ve never thought in those terms, but I suspect it probably was.”
“Maybe it’s supposed to be here because people would need to think and contemplate and wonder.”
He stands next to me, setting his elbows on the concrete barricade and gazing at the slate-gray ribbon that cuts across the city. “What’s on your mind?”
I heave a sigh. “A few things. First, I really enjoyed working with you at the firm.”
“You did?”
I nod. “I did. I liked rolling up my sleeves and tackling deals.”
He nudges me. “You angling for a job now?”
I laugh. “No. But it reminded me that I like striking deals and doing market analysis, and not to blow my own trumpet, but I’m also quite good at it.”
“You’re tops at what you do.”
“Thanks.” I scrub a hand across my chin. “I think I’m going to keep doing it.”
He squints in question. “So you do want a job?”
“No. I believe I’ve just made myself a consultant.”
“Ah, so this is what retirement looks like? Working your arse off?”
