He shakes his head, a familiar flash of sadness in his eyes. He hides it well, and it disappears so quickly I can almost believe it was never there at all except that I’ve glimpsed it since we were eighteen.
“I just think it says something about you—your life, your passions, and such—if you know what you’d eat if it were your last day. Sort of like last words. Did you know Humphrey Bogart’s last words were ‘I should never have switched from scotch to martinis’?”
“Fitting,” I say. “But let’s make sure yours aren’t ‘Do I have cheese on my face?’”
An eyebrow lifts, and he swipes a hand across his cheek.
I laugh, shaking my head. “Try again.”
“Damn. I missed it.” He goes for the forehead.
“Still off.”
“Help a mate out, Summer,” he says, jutting his face forward.
His gorgeous face.
I’m tempted to lift a finger. To touch his lip. To feel my flesh on his.
So I do, leaning closer, raising my hand, about to touch.
And maybe for a fraction of a second, the look in his eyes says he wouldn’t mind if I did that. Wouldn’t mind my hand on him. Wouldn’t mind knowing how my fingers on his lips would feel.
But I shake those lunatic thoughts away, reach for a napkin, and wipe the cheese off his lip like the mate that I am.
And still, a tingle rushes through me.
Sometimes I wish I didn’t feel these bouts of inappropriate desire for my good friend. They’re like a side effect of the drug of friendship with a hot guy. Buddy-ira. Friend-ium. Mate-Zan.
Side effects can include temporary hallucinations, including, but not limited to, occasional inconvenient fantasies, inability to control dirty thoughts, and heightened desire to touch your friend’s lips.
Because it is inappropriate for a thousand reasons—and also just one.
I need him.
Even though he’s as infuriating as an alarm clock that won’t stop beeping, he’s also as wonderful as a sunrise. And sunrise is my favorite part of the day. Which I suppose means Oliver is one of my favorite parts of life.
“Thank you for looking out for the artwork,” he says with a teasing wink. “The Louvre appreciates your service.”
I roll my eyes, and we are back to normal. As normal as we ever are anyway.
He sets down the remains of his sandwich, taps the plate, and declares the grilled cheese “on the short list for last meals because it says he lived his life unafraid to indulge now and then.”
“It was indeed a tasty indulgence,” I second.
He dusts one hand against the other. “Let’s dive into the paperwork.”
We spend the next hour reviewing the final details of the gym and its lease, as well as my insurance obligations. I’ve been saving for this for years and planning for just as many, and I’m nearly ready to pull the trigger.
“Everything looks good. And I’m proud of you, Summer. You’ve wanted to do this for some time. And look at you, doing it,” he says, smiling. It’s his earnest smile, his honest one. The one, too, that says he admires me. It’s one of my favorite smiles of his.
“Almost doing it,” I correct. “But I’ll get there. I have a meeting with the bank on Monday.”
“Need any help?”
“Nah, I’m good.” I want to do this on my own. Nab the loan, secure the financing, fund my dream. “I can’t wait to tell Maggie later that it’s looking good.”
“Your grams will be so happy for you that she’ll go run a marathon.”
“Or get on Tinder,” I say with a laugh. “Lord knows she has better luck than I do.”
“Are you still on Tinder? Thought you declared yourself done.” He says it crisply, as if done is exactly where he wants me to be with dating.
“I might as well be done with it.”
“Are you though?” he presses, and it sounds vital that he know. Perhaps it’s just the lawyer in him, asking questions in that most lawyerly tone.
“Not entirely,” I admit. “But I haven’t used it in a while.”
He groans, dropping his head in his hand. “Woman, what am I going to do with you? Screen all your dates so you stop dating douches?”
“I’m fine with my relationship status. Why does it bother you?”
“Why?” His eyes widen as he repeats the question. “Why does it bother me?”
“Yes. Why?”
“Because you’re you,” he says, and he seems flustered.
