“Shit,” he says, voice scratchy. “I’m so sorry. I’ll just—” He leans over to turn the phone off. The word JULIA flashes onscreen.
“Shit!” he says again, but this time it’s clearly a different kind of shit.
Not Shit, let me throw my phone into the sea so we can get back to this, but Shit, I really should’ve answered my phone the first time.
“I’m sorry,” he says, sliding me gently from his lap.
“It’s okay!” It comes out too loud. The sudden absence of his heat, his humming blood, his eagerly beating heart makes me feel like hallucinogenic fumes are being whisked out a window.
He grabs the phone. “It’s my sister.”
Another jarring push back to reality, from the lust haze.
I manage an awkward “Ah.”
“She wouldn’t call this many times unless it was important,” he says.
“Of course, yeah.” I wave him off, barely meeting his eyes. I wonder if my cheeks, jaw, and throat are red. They sting from the scrape of his facial hair.
He flashes an apologetic smile, pinches my chin a little.
Even this little gesture is intensely hot to me.
The phone is still buzzing in his hand. His eyes are on me.
I clear my throat. “Take it,” I get out, already buttoning myself back up.
13
I’ve switched over to live TV in an attempt not to eavesdrop, but the floorboards creak as Miles paces in his room, and the indistinct murmur of his voice is tinged with something akin to frustration—at least, Miles’s chill version of that.
Then, something less indistinct: “No, no, I mean, obviously I want you to. It’s just . . .”
A pause. “Shit, Julia,” he says. “Just ask me next time. Don’t pretend you’re asking me when it’s already a done deal.”
After a beat, he opens the bedroom door. “Okay,” he’s saying. “See you then.” Another second and then, “Love you too.”
He takes a deep breath, then emerges from the hall, looking exhausted.
“Everything okay?” I mute the TV: another show about a perfect couple house-hunting in a nondescript suburb with a four-trillion-dollar budget.
Miles tosses his phone into the chair and rubs both hands over his face. “My sister can be kind of impulsive.”
I sit up further, pull a throw pillow into my lap. “Is she okay?”
He comes to sit on the couch, leaving a foot between us. With a sigh, he says, “She’s at the airport. In Traverse City.”
The airport closest to us.
“What?” I say. “Why?”
He drops his face into his hands, massaging it for a second before meeting my eyes. “It’s . . .” He laugh-huffs. “I don’t know. She says she’s here to ‘help me take my mind off everything.’ ”
Well, that’s a sharp reminder of the state of things.
His jaw and forehead tense. “But something else is going on. Julia’s spontaneous, but she’s not fly across state lines with no warning spontaneous.”
He groans and massages his eyes again. “Sorry. This isn’t your problem. I just . . . She’s already here. So if it’s okay with you, I’m gonna go pick her up and bring her home. We don’t have to let her stay all week. Or if you don’t want her here at all, I can find her a hotel. I would’ve asked how you felt about it, if I’d known—”
“Miles, hey.” I grab his arm to get his attention. “Of course she can stay here. Unless you want me to say no, so that you don’t have to be the bad guy. In which case, absolutely the fuck not.”
He smiles. “She’s going to give me shit for the beard.”
“Oh, the mourning beard?” I tease. “The moving-to-the-woods-and-never-loving-again beard? Why would she have a problem with that?”
“Will you pretend to like it?” he asks.
My heart squeezes as I nod. It’s nice, feeling like we’re coconspirators.
“Anything else?” I ask. “You want me to pretend your bong is mine? Need to move your nudie mags under my bed?”
His head tips back on a bright laugh. “No nudie mags,” he says, “and for your information, I don’t have a bong.”
“What kind of a pothead doesn’t have a bong?” I ask.
“The kind who mostly uses weed when he needs to deep-clean the apartment, de-pill the couch, or watch Prehistoric Planet.”
