If t'were done, he told himself, t'were best done quickly.
Now he was flying. Free and happy.
Suddenly the plane's nose dipped and Kinsman felt his pressure suit begin to squeeze the air out of him. His arms became too heavy to lift. His head felt as if it would sink down inside his rib cage. He could hear the pilot's breath, over the open mike, rasping in long, regular panting grunts, like a man doing pushups, and Kinsman realized he was breathing hard too. They were diving toward the desert, which now looked as flat and hard and gray as steel. The pressure suit squeezed harder. Kinsman could not speak.
"Try a low-level run," the pilot gasped, between breaths. "Get a real . . . feeling of speed."
The helmet on Kinsman's head weighed two million pounds. He made a grunting noise that was supposed to be a cool "Okay."
And then they were skimming across the empty desert, engines howling, rocks and bushes nothing more than a speeding blur whizzing past. Kinsman took a deep exhilarat- ing breath. The plane shook and bucked as if eager to return to the thinner, clearer air where it had been designed to fly.
He thought he saw some buildings in the blur of hills off to his left, but before he could speak into his radio mike the pilot blurted;
"Whoops! Highway!"
The control column between Kinsman's knees yanked back toward his crotch. The plane stood on its tail, afterburn- ers screaming, and a microsecond's flicker of a huge tractor- trailer rig zipped past the corner of his eye. The suit squeezed at his middle again and he felt himself pressing into the contoured seat with the weight of an anvil on his chest.
They leveled off at last and Kinsman sucked in a great sighing gulp of oxygen.
"Damned sun glare does that sometimes," the pilot was saying, sounding half annoyed and half apologetic. "Damned desert looks clear but there's a truck doodling along the highway, hidden in the glare."
Kinsman found his voice. "That was a helluva ride."
The pilot chuckled. "I'll bet there's one damned rattled trucker down there. He's probably on his little ol' CB reporting a flying saucer attack."
They headed westward again, toward the setting sun. The pilot let Kinsman take the controls for a while as they climbed to cross the approaching Sierras. The rugged moun- tain crests were still capped with snow, bluish and cold. Like the wall of the Rockies that loomed over the Academy, Kinsman thought.
"You got a nice steady touch, kid. Make a good pilot."
"Thanks. I used to fly my father's Cessna. Even the Learjet, once."
"Got your license?"
"Not yet. I'll qualify at the Academy."
The pilot said nothing.
"I'm going in for astronaut training as soon as I gradu- ate," Kinsman went on.
