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ā€œEvery word, and not one of them makes a bit of difference.ā€

She dried her eyes on the sleeve of his coat. ā€œIt doesnā€™t, does it? Not to you, anyway.ā€ She eyed him strangely. ā€œTheyā€™ve told me some of what youā€™ve done. Not to my face. Iā€™ve listened and overheard a lot of things. Tarragon talks on the phone in my presence, sometimes. Youā€™ve done impossible things. Inhuman things.ā€¦

ā€œI know. I donā€™t know how Iā€™ve done them. Itā€™s as much a mystery to me as it must be to Tarragon and his mentors. It doesnā€™t matter. All that matters is that weā€™re together now and nothing canā€”ā€

She stopped him with a finger to his lips. ā€œNo, Eric. Itā€™s important. It might explain everything. Iā€™m not supposed to be capable of loving you like this, and a nonprofile man is not supposed to fall in love with me. But I do love you, and you love me. I can only think of one thing that explains whatā€™s happened to us, explains what youā€™re done.

ā€œEric, you have to be an artison yourself.ā€

He wasnā€™t shocked by the suggestion. She thought he might be, but he wasnā€™t.

ā€œIā€™m not an ignorant person, Lisa. Iā€™ve considered the same possibility. There are certain tests you can do. I applied some of them to myself, when I was left alone back in Nueva York. Attisons are perfectly human, to all outward appearances. But there are tests that can tell.ā€ She stared anxiously at him.

ā€œIā€™m not an artison, Lisa. It was one of the first things that occured to me whenā€ā€”he hesitatedā€”ā€œwhen I began doing things no human being should be able to do. I know that somehow Iā€™m special. Only a blind man could deny it. But Iā€™m not an artison. I failed every one of the tests. I didnā€™t have access to a laboratory, but I did have access to the Nueva York library, and to local drugstores. I failed every test, Lisa. I didnā€™t pass a single one.ā€

ā€œThen what are you, Eric Abbott?ā€ she asked softly. ā€œWhat are you?ā€

ā€œI donā€™t know. Different, but not like you. Different in some other way. Iā€™m a design engineer. I know how to run tests and interpret results. I agree it would have explained everything, and I almost wish it had. But it didnā€™t. Iā€™m no artison. More than a human, certainly, but in what way Iā€™ve no idea.

ā€œIt doesnā€™t matter, truly it doesnā€™t. Someday weā€™ll find out. All that matters now is that we love each other. Can you accept that, for now, as enough?ā€

ā€œIf you can accept what I am and still love me, Eric, then I can accept anything.ā€ She searched the cathedralā€™s interior. ā€œWe need to start thinking, start planning our escape. Not from London, but from Britain. I know itā€™s impossible to stay free forever, but youā€™ve made me want to try. Theyā€™ll track us down eventually, but a few days, or weeks, of happiness will help me live out the rest of my life. Iā€™ll always have those memories to turn to.ā€ Her eyes were bright and she looked more alive than heā€™d ever seen her.

ā€œWeā€™ll give them a run for it, Eric! It wonā€™t be easy. Youā€™re a wanted man, and me, Iā€™m an expensive product, difficult to replace. Letā€™s make them work for me!ā€

ā€œWeā€™ll do more than that,ā€ Eric assured her. ā€œYou keep saying thereā€™s no place we can hide from them, nowhere outside Tarragonā€™s reach? Well Iā€™ve been thinking, and there is such a place. Weā€™ve been talking about it for the last ten minutes. WOSA needs colonists? Well, itā€™s just acquired another two.ā€™ ā€™

She tried to hide her smile. ā€œThatā€™s a wonderful idea, Eric. Unfortunately, it canā€™t work. Itā€™s impossible. Of course, my falling in love with you is impossible. Your falling in love with me is impossible. Sitting here now, holding you close, instead of lying dead downriver or back in Nueva York is also impossible. So I suppose I shouldnā€™t be intimidated by still another impossibility.ā€

ā€œNo indeed,ā€ he told her, eyes shining. ā€œBut we have to wait here a few minutes longer before we can begin.ā€ He settled himself against the ancient bench.

ā€œBut why?ā€

There was a strange, beatific expression on his face. Beneath the dome, the voices of the choir soared. ā€œIā€™ve always loved Vaughn Williams.ā€

Tarragon was accustomed to operating independent of government interference. He reported to an authority which regarded regional governments as nuisances, relics of a dying past.

Despite that, or more likely because of it, he regarded the upcoming interview with apprehension. The trip across the frozen surface of Lake Lucerne had been made in eerie silence, the skifoil skimming the ice while fat snowflakes drifted down to melt against the windows, and the craggy majesty of the Alps rose like pale ghosts behind the storm clouds.

The entrance to the mountain was deceptively calm, the immense metal doors moving aside to admit him quietly, the ranks of armed, alert guards noting his every step. Inside he found himself plunged into an organized maelstrom of activity, bumped and nudged by rapidly, moving programmers and processors while his escort maneuvered them both ever deeper into the bowels of the Authority.

Then the escort left him alone outside a door. It was a perfectly ordinary door, identical to dozens heā€™d passed during his descent. The voice that bade him enter, however, sent a chill through him, a new sensation for Tarragon. Every informed human being on Earth knew that voice.

ā€œCome in, please.ā€ He entered.

The elderly man who sat staring at several optos matched the voice. Tarragon looked past him, at the optos. The information displayed was incomprehensible to him.

How tired he looks, Tarragon thought. He always looked tired during his public appearances, but never this worn. He wondered if they used makeup on him for his opto speeches.

ā€œItā€™s me, sir. I have an appointment. Tarragon?ā€

ā€œTarragon? Oh, yes, the man from North America.ā€ Oristano swiveled round in his chair and extended a hand. He did not rise.

ā€œHow do you do, Tarragon.ā€ He gestured toward a nearby couch. ā€œPlease take a seat.ā€

Tarragon did so, feeling a little more at ease. While the Chief of Operations and Programming still presented a formidable appearance, it was much less impressive than heā€™d anticipated. What Martin Oristano represented, however, was more than enough to awe his visitor.

ā€œExcuse me, sir, but I still donā€™t know why Iā€™ve been told to report to you. Iā€™m not used to being yanked from an unfinished assignment, especially one as baffling and frustrating as the one Iā€™ve been concentrating on this past month.ā€

ā€œI am quite familiar with the problems youā€™ve been having, Tarragon, and believe me, I sympathize.ā€

Tarragon nodded, unsurprised. The CPO had access to everything that happened on the planet. ā€œThen thereā€™s more to this business than Iā€™ve been told?ā€

ā€œQuite a bit more.ā€

ā€œThat still doesnā€™t tell me why Iā€™m here, or why Iā€™ve been pulled from the case.ā€

ā€œYou havenā€™t been ā€˜pulled from the case,ā€™ Tarragon. Youā€™re still assigned to it. Youā€™ve been brought here to be filled in. You see, the Colligatarch itself has become interested in the exploits of your Mr. Abbott.ā€

ā€œI knew it.ā€ Tarragon nodded as he shifted nervously on the couch. It was too soft for his taste. It made him want to relax. ā€œI knew there had to be more to that man than met the eye. I didnā€™t believe the reports until he slipped out of our grasp in Nueva York. And then when he escaped from us a second time outside London, and then right in front of ā€¦ have you been told what heā€™s done?ā€

ā€œAs I said. I am familiar with the relevant details.ā€

ā€œIā€™m sure you are, sir, but itā€™s one thing to read about them on an opto screen and another to stand in front of a hole in a solid concrete wall that your quarryā€™s just walked through. Itā€™s another thing to watch him vanish before your eyes before sleep gas and a dozen shells reach his body. What am I dealing with here, sir? I have to know what I can expect in the future.ā€

ā€œI understand, Tarragon. In turn you must understand that this business has put many important people, including myself, under a considerable strain. Iā€™ve spent more time on this matter than intended, and now it appears little enough time remains.ā€

ā€œThere is still enough time,ā€ said a new voice. Tarragonā€™s eyes swept the room, saw no one. Then the small hairs on the back of his neck rose as he realized who the voice must belong to.

Suddenly he wished he was elsewhere. He was just a poor city boy from the back alleys of Ankara whoā€™d risen far in a difficult profession. He didnā€™t belong here. There were forces in motion around him beyond his comprehension, forces that would use him or cast him aside with cold indifference. The role of pawn didnā€™t appeal to him.

ā€œExcuse me, your lordship.ā€ Immediately he felt a fool. That couldnā€™t be correct. But neither could ā€œyour computership.ā€

The machine sensed his distress. It was not uncommon in humans conversing with the Colligatarch for the first time.

ā€œColligatarch will be fine, Kemal.ā€

He relaxed a little, wondering that the machine would be thoughtful enough to address him in the familiar. His professional curiosity quickly overcame his awe.

ā€œColligatarch, I was told that certain things that should not have happened have, indeed, happened. They progress toward the absurd. Who or what is this Eric Abbott I have been asked to capture?ā€

ā€œEric Abbott is a threat, Kemal. A threat not only to the Lure program to which you are attached by WOSA, but to a great deal more. Everything that has happened up to now has been part of an elaborate deception, designed to mask the actual nature of this threat.

ā€œI have entertained suspicions as to the true nature for some time now, but only suspicions. We have all been cleverly drawn down an entirely wrong path. Now I believe I have divined their actual intentions. We are at a crisis point.

ā€œI could deal with the immediate danger posed by your Eric Abbott, but that would result in his destruction. There is a small but finite opportunity to change the moral and ethical polarities involved. I would prefer to do this, but it entails considerable risk.ā€

ā€œI didnā€™t think the Colligatarch took risks.ā€

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