He believes I will be able to control it once I get started, but I’m slightly panicked that I will hurt Colt, and I don’t want to ever hurt either of them.
Actually, I don’t want to hurt anyone, ever. But David insists that it’s a power and skill I need because if I am hurt and injured, I can pull some life force from either of the guys and heal myself without killing them. The idea of that happening isn’t something I want to think about, either.
What could possibly happen that I would ever need my powers for? I just don’t get it. Before I got here my life was simple and human. I find it hard to wrap my mind around all the things that could possibly happen in this new life and world I now live in.
Colten grabs my hand and squeezes to pull me back to the present and out of my thoughts.
“You’ve got this, babe. Stop worrying so much.”
With his words of encouragement, knowing that Bry is supporting me, and that I have David to pull me back if I go too far, I focus on my task.
I lean in close, hovering my mouth over his and look into his eyes. The trust that shines back calms me down enough to breathe and remember the instructions David gave.
Focus on my my breathing, and feel the connection we have.
Breathe in and out to focus my breath and mind.
Once that’s done, focus on suctioning life force from him as I breathe in, like I am sucking air through a straw.
After failing several times, I get frustrated and fall back on my ass.
“It’s useless. I obviously can’t do it. Maybe I just wasn’t born with this power like you think I was.” I send a glare to David, and he just pointedly looks at me before Colten sits up.
“Babe. You’re a succubus. It’s not possible for you to not have the power to take and give life force. It’s what succubi do.” He leans over to give me a kiss, and I just huff.
“Why do you have so much faith in me, yet I can’t find it within myself?” I lean into his side when he moves closer to me, before looking at all three of them. “All of you. You have so much faith in me and my abilities, and I haven’t done anything to deserve it.”
Colten wraps his arms around me tighter as Bry joins us on the floor, leaning into my other side.
“We have faith in you because we know you. We love you, and we can see and sense the goodness that is all encompassing about you,” Bry states as he kisses my head, making me sigh.
“I guess I need to have more faith and trust in myself,” I whisper more to myself than them.
Looking between the two guys I’ve come to love in such a short amount of time, I sigh. If they trust and care for me, and they can put their differences aside to be with me, I can sure as hell get my head out of my ass and stop wallowing.
I’m about to say just that when David interrupts my thoughts.
“Harleigh, you are a very bright, and smart girl. If I thought even for an instant that you would harm my son in any way, I would have done everything in my power to pull him out of this place when things first began,” he states, and I believe him.
Through all his misgivings, he loves his son and wouldn’t want him in harms way.
“You’re all right. You’re here for me, and I’m going to get my act together and do this. I need to know who I am deep inside, and I won’t find that until I believe in myself and my abilities. Even if we don’t know what all of them are yet.”
Colten gives me a squeeze on the ass when I get back on my knees, and winks at me. Why does he have to be so damn sexy?
“Enough of that,” I tell him sternly. “Lay down so I can suck the life out of you.”
He just snorts and lays down. “There’s the fire I fell for. Come on, babe. Do your worst,” he taunts, and I shake my head.
Always the asshole.
Taking a deep breath, I focus on all of the energy inside me. I remember David’s words and instructions on what to do, but rather than focusing on the step by step and making it clinical, I close my eyes and search deep inside myself. I can feel the power stirring inside me, and focus on feeling it build, kind of like a meditation exercise.
I feel the pull in my body as I lean over Colt and run my nose against his, getting close enough for our lips to barely touch before I try and breathe in.
It takes a couple breaths and telling myself to really stay grounded and present in the moment before I feel a kind of energy flowing through my body.
I can only imagine it’s how someone would describe being on a high. My body is thrumming with a force I’ve never felt, and when I open my eyes to look at Colt, I can see a red aura moving between us as I breathe him in. I feel him in my soul as I take a piece of him that he’s willingly giving me.
I pull back in surprise at the overwhelming feelings, and gasp for air. Everything around me starts spinning, and I can feel myself swaying before strong arms engulf me. I know it’s Bry without having to look, because I am surrounded by a calming peace that only he can provide.
“Easy, beautiful. I’ve got you,” he whispers as he pulls me into his lap, and looks me over. “You okay?”
“Yeah, I’m good. Just felt heady and it made me dizzy,” I explain before looking over to Colt still lying on the ground. “Are you okay, Colt?”
“I’m fine. A bit tired, but fine.” He looks at me. “That was kinda hot, you leaning over me like that. You were one hell of a sexy-ass-tease, babe.” He laughs a little, but I can tell he’s tired, and I look over to David with concern.
“Is he okay?” I ask, trying to hide the fear I’m feeling.
“He’s fine. You didn’t take anything that he can’t rebuild with a little rest if you weren’t to give the energy and life force back to him.”
Hearing that makes me feel a bit better, but I am giving it back to him. That’s the whole point of this, right? To teach me how to do both even though I never plan to use it.
There is another side effect to this exercise I haven’t told anyone, but the way Colt is looking at me I can guess he knows.
I’m horny as all hell. That high I mentioned? Total rush to my lady parts. It’s like I can feel a part of him coursing through my veins, and it makes me want him like a greedy bitch.
“Stop looking at me like that, babe, before I pull you over my knee and smack that sweet ass of yours for teasing me,” he huffs out a laugh, and I giggle at the groan David lets out.
