I stayed, soaking it all in.
It was my second time in the vault after Alex had handed over the keys, and I was still wrapping my head around the fact that it was mine. My place to shape, mold, and design as I saw fit (with some professional input). It was my responsibility, which was both thrilling and terrifying.
A familiar chime reverberated through the empty space.
I glanced down, my high melting into concern when I saw who was calling. I had a lunch date with Sloane soon, but I was too anxious to let the call roll to voicemail.
āIs everything okay?ā I asked without preamble after picking up. Eduardo wouldnāt call me in the middle of the day unless something was wrong. Then again, it wasnāt like I had any more parents left to lose.
A brief, humorless smile flicked into existence at my dark humor. Coping mechanisms were coping mechanisms, no matter how morbid.
āI wanted to see how you were holding up and how the nightclub is going,ā Eduardo said. āIāve heard good things from Sloane, though she may be a bit biased considering the, ah, recent developments.ā
So news of our relationship had made its way to BogotĆ”. I wasnāt surprised. I bet the inheritance committee was watching me like a hawk.
āWe didnāt start dating until after I came up with the idea,ā I said. āIf youāre worried about it compromising Sloaneās judgment, donāt be. Sheās not that type of person. Sheāll be honest regardless of our relationship status.ā
Even if she were the type to go easy on me because we were datingāwhich she wasnātāI wouldnāt want her to. Iād succeed on my own merit or not at all.
āI know that, mijo, but not everyone does. There are growing whispers of her conflict of interest. Sheās your publicist, and sheās one of your evaluators come May, yet you two areā¦involved,ā Eduardo said delicately. āIt doesnāt look good.ā
āI donāt care how it looks.ā Stubbornness set into my jaw. āWeāre consenting adults. What we do in our free time is our business, and my fatherās will didnāt say a thing about conflicts of interest, nor did it forbid me from dating a committee member. If anyone has a problem with us dating, they can take it up with the executor of his will. Sloane is one judge out of five, Eduardo. She wonāt make or break the decision.ā
āUnless thereās a tie, but I see your point.ā A long pause preceded his next words. āIāve never heard you so fired up over a woman.ā
āSheās not just any woman. Sheāsā¦ā Everything.
I almost said it. The word came so easily, it wouldāve slipped right off my tongue had its potential implications not hit me at the same time like a hollow-point bullet.
Sloane couldnāt be my everything.
Yes, I cared about her deeply, and no, I couldnāt stop thinking about her. She set my blood on fire whenever she was near and when she hurt, I hurt. She was the only person with whom I felt comfortable enough to share the secrets Iād shared, and if a genie popped out of a bottle this very second and asked me to change something about her, I wouldnāt change a single thing.
But all that wasnāt the same as her being everything, because if she were everything, then that meant sheā¦that meant Iā¦
āAh.ā Eduardoās voice softened. āI see.ā
I didnāt know what he heard in my silence, but I wasnāt ready to face it. Not yet.
āHowās the CEO search going on your end?ā I asked, abruptly switching subjects. I needed something to take my mind off my Sloane spiral, and the Castillo Groupās seemingly eternal CEO search was as good a distraction as any.
āItās fine. The board probably wonāt make a final decision until the New Year. Thereās strong contention over which of the candidates is better suited for the role.ā
āThey should choose you.ā I meant it as a quip because Eduardo had never wanted to be CEO, but the more I thought about it, the more it made sense. He was included on the shortlist as a courtesy, but why wouldnāt they choose him? Iād seen the other names; he could run circles around them. Plus, he wasnāt an asshole like ninety percent of the list.
His shocked laugh rolled over the line. āXavier, you know this was always supposed to be a temporary arrangement. My wife would kill me if I took it on permanently.ā
āShe might be more open to it than you think.ā Eduardoās wife was unyielding when it came to family time, but she was also a lawyer. She understood how to balance work and her personal life, and I bet Eduardo did too. āYou care about the company, you have the institutional knowledge, and youāre good at the job. You helped my father build it into what it is today. What external candidate could possibly beat that?ā
Silence reigned for several beats. āI donāt know. Itās a big decision. Even if I want it, I canāt guarantee the board will go for it.ā
āJust think about it. I bet the board isnāt pushing it because they think you donāt want it.ā
āMaybe.ā He sighed, the sound edged with sadness and frustration. āAlberto had to go and leave us with this mess, didnāt he?ā
āHe always did like fucking people over.ā I leaned against a pillar and stared at the wall of old safe-deposit boxes across from me. The sight transported me back to Colombiaāmy fatherās room, my motherās letter, the scent of old books and leather during the reading of the will. āYou know what I donāt understand? How and why my father failed to catch the loophole in his will. He didnāt stipulate the company I should be CEO of, Eduardo. Does that sound like Alberto Castillo to you?ā
āNo. At least not the Alberto Castillo I knew before his diagnosis. But impending death changes people, mijo. It forces us to confront our mortality and reevaluate whatās important.ā
I snorted. Eduardo always liked to sugarcoat things when it came to my father. āWhat are you saying? That he had a sudden change of heart while lying on his deathbed?ā
āIām saying that in the last days of his illness, he had a lot of time to think. About the past, about his legacy, and most of all, about his relationship with you.ā Another, heavier pause in which I could hear Eduardo turning words over in his mind. āHe found your motherās letter at the beginning of the year when he was getting his affairs in order. Alberto wanted to tell you about it in person, butā¦ā He hesitated. āThatās why I was so insistent that you visit him. I didnāt know how much longer he had, and some things are meant to be shared face-to-face.ā
Wisps of cold stole through me and pulled my chest tight. āDonāt put that burden on me, Eduardo,ā I said harshly. āYou know why I didnāt want to come home.ā
āYes. Iām not blaming you, Xavier,ā Eduardo said, his voice gentle. āI merely want to share the other side of the story. But for what itās worth, your father didnāt read the letter. That was for your eyes only. He knew Patricia enough to know that was what she wouldāve wanted. But seeing that letter from your motherā¦I think it forced him to think about what she wouldāve said if she saw the two of you after her death. How she wouldāve hated the way your relationship fell apart, and how it wouldāve broken her heart to see him blaming you for what happened. She loved you and your father more than anything else in the world. Your rift wouldāve devastated her.ā
The gut punch from his words cracked the concrete wall Iād built around my chest, making my ribs ache and my throat close. āDid he tell you all that, or did you put the words in his mouth?ā
āHalf and half. Your father and I were friends since we were children, and weād confided in each other enough that he didnāt always have to express his thoughts out loud for me to understand them.ā
The safe-deposit boxes blurred for an instant before I blinked the haze away. āFine. Letās pretend everything you said is true. What does that have to do with the will?ā
āI canāt say for sure. He didnāt tell me he was changing his will until after the fact,ā Eduardo admitted. āI didnāt know about the new inheritance clause, nor did I know I would be on the evaluation committee. But youāre right. Alberto Castillo was not a man who wouldāve overlooked such a glaring loophole, which meant he put it in there on purpose. I suspectā¦ā This time, his hesitation carried a hint of caution. āIt was his way of simultaneously extending an olive branch and pushing you closer to your potential. He couldāve easily cut off your inheritance unless you followed whatever terms he dictated, or he couldāve written you out of the will altogether. But he didnāt.ā
An olive branch from my father. The idea was so absurd I wanted to laugh, but Eduardo wasnāt wrong. My father couldāve cut me off. It wouldāve been his last big fuck you before passing.
I thought heād changed my inheritance terms so he could manipulate me into doing what he wanted even after his death. That was definitely part of it, butā¦maybe there was more to the story.