Fudge me.
He knows what his tax returns say about gross income—just under $35,000—annually, for his last few years at the Barrel.
Also knows he has plenty of new sponsor merch but it’s not like the pirates are going to want surfboards, XL wetsuits, trunks, beach shorts, T-shirts, hoodies, leather flip-flops, surf-inspired jewelry made of shells, beads, and sea glass. Certainly not organic sunscreen, Day-Glo nose-coats, CBD lip-savers, or blocks of scented surfboard wax. Maybe the Seiko Waterman watches, he thinks. He’s already given most of them to friends, but he’s got six of them with different-colored dials, still in their boxes, worth five hundred bucks a throw, though technically he’s not allowed to sell them.
“Casey! Another margarita! And a couple of Bohemias!”
A bank loan?
Or maybe money from Mom or Brock?
But Casey knows that Brock’s funding for the Breath of Life Rescue Mission isn’t steady, and he’s got Mahina depending on him. Plus, Brock blows money like crazy, getting the Go Dogs to the latest disaster with generous donations, but many of the life-saving supplies are covered by his always meager personal funds.
His mom has eight grand, though how much she can put her hands on, quickly, he doesn’t know. The idea of borrowing from your mom at age twenty-four doesn’t seem right.
Makes Casey feel like the dumbass that Brock and everybody else have always told him he is.
Later, after locking the Barrel doors for the night, he joins his mother on the outside deck for their customary vodka rocks.
It’s the only alcohol he drinks. One vodka with Mom, per night. Doesn’t love the woozy booze buzz; never has. He honors this ritual for her, though. She has her single drink with him, but Casey knows she drinks more at home, later, to help her sleep. He isn’t sure how much she drinks but he knows she’s up before dawn for her miles of paddling, swimming, running, weight lifting, breath exercises in the high school pool. All in preparation for the Monsters of Mavericks in a few short weeks. Then there’s her fourteen-hour days here at the Barrel, noon to 2 A.M. Six days straight and one day off.
His mother has always run on some inner fuel that Casey has never clearly understood. At times it seems desperate. He thinks it has to do with his father. Maybe with her near worship of him. And maybe to do with some things between them. Secrets. Regrets. Things unsaid. Maybe to do with trying to fill the immense hole that’s been in her for as long as he, Casey, has been alive. The same hole in him.
His just a different shape and size.
Now, from the deck, Jen can see the Brooks Street break she’ll be paddle-surfing just a few hours from now, the hotel lights on the beach, the shining low-tide boulders, the moonlight wobbling on the water.
The waves are small, just a puny west swell, the water temp down to the high fifties. But nothing like the cold Mavericks had been—and will be, she thinks—remembering the bone-deep shock that gripped her there as she powered the jet ski in search of John, her body numbed not just by the water but compressed and constricted by four millimeters of neoprene head to toe. Hard to feel her toes and fingers. Ears aching. Then the sudden recognition: John under the ice-cold water, leashed to a boulder like an infant by his cord.
Yes, so much to fear there. So much to fear at the Monsters.
Enough. Think “do.” Think “strong.”
“I’ll have the money by ten tomorrow,” she says. “Does it matter what kind of bills?”
“Twenties. Thanks, Mom. I’ll pay you back really fast.”
So Casey, she thinks. So good and sweet and sometimes naïve. “I know you will.”
It makes her almost sick, thinking what might happen to Mae. Those men out in the water today looked strong and dangerous.
“I keep thinking I should call the FBI,” he says. “They won’t let me pay the ransom but they’ll help me set the dognappers up, then try to nail them. At least they do that with people. But what if it doesn’t go perfect? What if the pirates smell the sting and Mae ends up dumped? To hide evidence? The feds flub up kidnappings all the time. I just can’t take that risk. Am I being stupid?”
“I urge you to call the police, Casey.”
Jen locks eyes with her beautiful son.
“No, Mom. They’d just mess things up. I called Brock instead.”
A bolt of fear hits her. “The pirates could end up with the money, and Mae,” she says.
Immediately regretting it.
Jen has spent the last twenty-five years not allowing herself to fear small things. Small things like Bette Wu, or her father the Kings fan, or his leering sidekick, Polo. Not allowing herself to be afraid of anything. So she hates it when second-rate fears come drifting over the terrifying pit that is Mavericks. Hates to infect Casey and Brock with them. And herself, too.
“But I don’t think they will,” she says, overriding her last unnecessary, fearful sentence. “So stick to your plan with your brother, Case. We’ll get Mae back. I’ll do anything you need. I can help you pack up the money, drive you to the dropoff, keep an eye out for anything going wrong. I’m not afraid of these people.”
Casey taps his empty glass on the table. “They’ll want me alone, probably.”
“I’ll hang back,” she says.
“Brock’s on his way.”
“The three of us will get her back, Case. We’ll be drinking toasts after work tomorrow night, Mae asleep on somebody’s feet like she always is. I’m feeling it. We’re going to own this thing, just like those waves at Mavericks.”
For twenty-five years, it’s been pure Jen Stonebreaker to encourage her sons to face what she’s afraid of. So long as they’re not.
And just a few weeks from now, to tow Casey into the deadly heart of her own fear. Can she save him from John’s fate?
Of course I can, she thinks: that’s the whole point of the Monsters. To beat what I’m afraid of. To slaughter the fear.
She won’t let Casey sense it.
“I told Brock and Mahina not to bring guns,” he says.
Always the pacifist, Jen thinks. Always the peacemaker, the good, the fair, the God-fearing.
“And?”
