“You did? What was that like?”
“It was . . .” She stares at the corner of the salon, as if she’s conjuring up that moment. “Weird, but it was also necessary. We were both trying to move on, and I think we were both ready to ask each other questions. ‘Where were you when he went to this conference?’ ‘Oh, when he said he was going to Madrid, he must have been heading to see you.’ ‘That time he said he was stuck in a storm, he must have had to go back to your home.’ And so on. We sort of filled in these puzzle pieces that we hadn’t realized at the time were missing. But they were.”
“Did you blame her? Did she blame you?”
She shakes her head. “Neither. We both were in the dark. I felt strangely bonded to her for that hour we spent at a café.”
I barely know what to say, but at the same time, a million questions zip around in my head. “So he lived in two places. Does that mean he was married in two countries?”
She nods. “And he used a different last name when he was in Spain. He had two passports for two countries, so I presume that’s how he pulled it off. His ‘brother,’” she says, stopping to draw air quotes, “called me after the funeral, trying to reassure me that Eduardo had married both of us because he truly loved both of us, and couldn’t choose. ‘Don’t doubt his love for you,’ he’d said, as if that was going to make any of it better.”
“Was he really the brother?”
She shakes her head. “The guy was simply his best friend. Eduardo had called him his brother so it’d seem like he had family at our wedding.”
“You must have felt like nothing he’d said was true.”
“Exactly. That’s exactly how I felt.”
“Jesus, Elise,” I say, my shoulders sagging as the enormity of that double-whammy sinks in. “I wish I knew what to say except that sounds bloody awful.”
“It was.” She squares her shoulders. “But you move on. You learn from your mistakes.” Her eyes are fierce now as she meets my gaze straight-on. “That’s why I like things the way they are between us. I like things prescribed and in control. I like that they’re not consuming.”
“I like it too,” I say, because I like my lifestyle. I don’t need to venture down a more serious road when the road I’m riding is smooth. “And I assure you, I’m not secretly married to anyone else.”
“Excellent. No secret identities either?”
I glance at the ceiling, as if hemming and hawing. “Well, I do moonlight as a cape-wearing superhero with super strength and a killer grin.” I flash her a smile that makes her laugh. “But other than that, I’m just me.” I strip the teasing away and look at her earnestly. “But that’s the truth. It’s just me.”
“Good. I like knowing where you stand. That’s honestly the only way I want to be with someone right now, and it’s probably for always. I won’t go through what I went through with Eduardo again.”
“Let’s resolve to be honest. Let’s resolve to not play any games, except in bed. Cards on the table.”
“I’ll put mine down.” She spreads a hand on the table, as if showing a pair of aces. “To start, I want to make this arrangement exclusive. You and me.” She wags a finger. “But no expectation of love or of laundry.”
I laugh. “It’s been exclusive since the night at the garden bar, little mermaid. There hasn’t been anyone else. And I’ve done my own laundry for a long, long time, thank you very much.”
“Excellent. Let’s keep it that way.”
I take her hand and run my fingers through hers, sliding them together slowly. “Can we enjoy this arrangement more fully tonight? Maybe explore the terms of it at my place?”
“What sort of terms do you have in mind?”
With my other hand, I run a finger down her throat. “I’d like to slide this top off you, kiss my way down your body, and lick your breasts.”
She shivers. “I think I could sign off on that point.”
“And under this arrangement, I’d very much like to peel off this skirt, slide my hand along your legs . . .” I whisper, my hand now drifting to her skirt.
“Oh God,” she whimpers.
“So, a yes to that?”
“Yes.”
“You say you don’t want to be consumed, but I’d love to consume you with my mouth.”
A flush spreads over her skin, and I want to take her out of here, strip her naked, and lick her all over. But I also don’t want to stop. My hand slinks farther under her skirt, my fingers climbing up her legs. I can feel her heat as she spreads her thighs a little wider.
“Would you be amenable to that provision in the deal?”
“I would,” she whispers, then she bites her lip as my fingers reach the apex of her thighs. She’s so fucking wet.
I slide my fingers across her soaked panties, the tablecloth shielding my busy hands. A quick glance around tells me we can pull this off. We’re in the corner, the waiters are busy, and the nearest patrons are a few tables away.
A tremble spreads over her shoulders as I push the fabric to one side, then slip my finger inside her wet knickers. She gasps, parting her thighs a little wider as I trace her slickness. “Does this deal include letting me worship you with my mouth tonight?”
She nods.
“And does it include giving me the chance to fucking adore you with my tongue?”
Another nod.
My fingers slide along her wetness, and the hand that holds mine grips me tighter. As I reach that delicious rise of her clit, her grip on me turns bionic. “And under the terms of this arrangement, I’d want you to get naked under me, so I can help you let go of all this tension from your shitty day and your shitty ex. You can forget it all and be consumed by how I fuck you with my tongue.”
“Christian.” It comes out like a desperate, quiet plea.
I slide a finger inside. She digs her teeth into her lower lip, arching into my hand as she trembles. “We can arrange for you to come all over my face,” I say, rubbing my stubbled jaw against her cheek.
