Heās got a third finger in me now. My groin is getting tight again, so I reach my fingers up to hold his chin. I donāt want to climax like this a second time. āInside me now, please.ā
Thirty-One
Junichi
Jae is looking up at me from the pillow, his chestnut eyes lazy with sexual gratification. My sweet princeāwarm creamy skin and dark golden, messy waves.
Now that I know for certain what he is, itās obvious. How the hell did I miss it or even question it? Heās stunning. Perplexing. The pull I feel toward him is unquestionable, buzzing inside me like a low hum. Itās always made me nervous, so Iāve tried to ignore it. Iāve pushed it away along with the words Haruka spokeāthat Jaeās awakening is in part because of me. Our compatibility is so strong that his nature intrinsically responds to me.
I remove my fingers from the warm cavern of his body and sit up straight. Grabbing his hand, I pull him upright and toward me. Heās confused but smiling. He trusts me.
āWhatās all this?ā he asks.
I sit up straight, folding my legs in the middle of the bed. His hand is still in mine, so I urge him toward me. āCome closer,ā I say, smiling up at him as he lifts to his knees. I bring his hand over my shoulder like weāre dancing, urging him into my lap. He gets it now and climbs onto my folded legs. I hold his waist while he places his hands on my shoulders to steady himself.
Soon, heās facing me with his legs gaped open as he sits in the hollow of my lap. The condom is beside me, so I pick it up and hand it to him. While he opens it and slowly unrolls it onto me, Iām lazily tracing my fingertips outside his thighs, up his hips and waist, then around to the small of his back.
Could I do this with him forever? Have him in my house, being warm, witty and delightful? Running my shop by day, then coming home to him at nightā¦ pleasing him and laughing with him. Dancing and eating with him.
Iāve never had the desire to bond. Even when I was expected to do it with Ren, I didnāt want it. Being bonded with my father slowly killed my momās spirit. I hated watching it year after year, knowing I couldnāt do anything about it other than promise myself to never be in a situation like hersāpermanently beholden to someone cold who outranked me.
I still wouldnāt say that I want to bond, butā¦ when Jae fully awakens and heās a first-gen like me, maybeā¦ maybe I can imagine it. Weāll be equals thenāwell matched and innately drawn to each other. Even if heās second- or third-gen when he awakens, if my nature responds this strongly to him, I should accept it, shouldnāt I? Iāll be rid of Ren and his fucking purebred blood. Itāll be hard, butā¦ maybe I should trust in this?
Jae is making sexy little moaning noises as he slowly settles himself onto my cock. I donāt force or manipulate him in any way. I just kiss him underneath and along his jawline as I caress his lower back with my fingertips, waiting until heās made himself comfortable. When heās all the way down, he wraps his legs around me, sighing and finding my mouth to kiss me back. He feels so tight and hot around my shaftāthe weight of him is marvelous. Not too heavy, not too light. Perfect. Heās relaxed and already gently rocking his hips into me as he kisses me. Heās so fucking sexy and brazen. He does these things and chills go up my spine.
I slide my hands down to his hips, urging his movement against me now. Weāre still kissing, but itās getting wild with Jaeās rocking. Messy. Jae breaks the kiss and inhales like he canāt breathe, lifting his face toward the ceiling with his eyes clenched shut.
āChrist, Junā¦ you feel so good.ā
With his eyes still closed, he removes his hands from around my shoulders and leans back on his palms, using the bed as leverage to rock himself harder into me. Heās swearing and out of breath, like heās desperately chasing the release he needs from me.
Iām mesmerized by him. The feel of his body wrapped around me, the delicious scent of him and his shameless desire. I take one hand from his hip and firmly wrap it around his shaft between us to help him in his pursuit. I grip him hard, pulling and tugging, and a moment later he cries out, spilling over for me. He arches his neck and back, stunning and angelic in the golden sunlight pouring in through the glass wall.
Without even thinking, I grab his torso and pull him toward me while his neck is exposed. I lift my chin so that Iām just above his collarbone and I bite down hard. I hear Jae gasp, then feel his hands at my shoulders, swiftly wrapping around to embrace me.
His blood is flowing into my mouth, divine as I pull and swallow. He tastes just like he smellsāsweet, warm and everything good. Anything satisfying Iāve ever known. Something freshly baked or a rainy day indoors. A winter night by the fire. Everything cozy and wholesome feels like its concentrated in Jaeās blood and I donāt understand why. How is he so unbelievably satisfying to me when he hasnāt even fully awakened yet?
The sublime pleasure of his blood and the heat of his tight body push me over the edge. I climax while Iām still feeding from him, like electricity is running up my spine and through me, straight to my brain. Jae has one hand clasped at the back of my neck, the other in my hair with his fingers gently massaging my scalp and his arms resting on my shoulders. Heās encouraging what Iām doing. Willingly giving of himself.
When I pull up from his neck and lick him clean, I notice heās trembling. Worried, I look up to check his face. āAre you alright?ā I ask.
Heās calm as he smiles. āIām perfect.ā
āWhy are you shaking like this?ā I look him over, caressing my hands up his spine to embrace him tight, wanting to ease his tremors.
He wraps his arms tighter around my shoulders. āI donāt knowā¦ This happened the first time you fed from me too. I feel gooey and melty inside. It makes me shake, but it passes. Iām alright.ā
I blink, lifting my head from the warm hug to face him. āWhy didnāt you tell me that the first time?ā
He leans into me, brushing his nose against mine with his eyes closed. āYou were a bit miffed with me at the time, remember? Having thought I was lying to you about being a vampire.ā
I smile, meeting his affection. āYou were.ā
He lifts his head from me, his face serious. āWas not. Junāā
I kiss him and wrap my arms even tighter around his waist. When I sense the tension in him relax, I pull up. āIām joking, Jae. If you feel something strange happening with your body, please tell me. Iām sorry I wasnāt in the right state of mind that first time.ā
āDonāt worry,ā he says, nuzzling his nose against me again. God, he really loves this. āAre weā¦ bonded now?ā
I laugh. āNo. If we were, you would know. I hear itās an unmistakable feelingālike an anchor being dropped in your gut and at the base of your spine.ā
āI sincerely doubt itās as painful and horrific as you describe.ā
I shrug. āItās just what Iāve heardāand sometimes there are flashes of light and color.ā I pinch his ass so he jumps slightly in surprise. āIf youāll release me, maybe we can shower, have some spicy tofu soup and then make our way back here?ā
Having fed from Jae is like a palate cleanser. The residual, emotional muck that Ren dumped into me is gone, but I still feel tired. I didnāt have a lot of appointments today. The ones I had, Iāll cancel. I know Jae usually researches and works on the surrogacy program in the mornings, butā¦
He grins, occasionally wincing as he slowly lifts himself from my shaft. āLazing about all morning in bed? With you? Yes, pleaseā¦ So sex is back on the table for us?ā
Distracted, I carefully take hold of the used condom. āObviously.ā When I have it in my fingers, I scoot toward the end of the bed.
āNoāI meanā¦ This isnāt a one-time thing? Like you just wanted a refresher course.ā
Iām standing to walk toward the bathroom, but pause and look at him. āI thinkā¦ if youāre open with me about how youāre feeling, maybe weāre okay? Since youāre not fully awakenedā¦ we donāt need to be so strict.ā And deep downādeep, deep downāI tell myself that if it happensā¦ it happens.
Jae falls back, smiling as he stretches his arms up over his head and writhes against the comforter, happy and naked. āI promise to tell you everythingāopen communication. No secretsā¦ Are you sleeping with anyone else? Currently?ā
Iām in the bathroom, but I still hear him. āNo.ā I poke my head through the frame. āAre you?ā
Jae spins himself and flips so that heās lying on his stomach and facing me. His feet are in the air behind him and heās resting on his elbows. āNope. I donāt want to.ā
I smirk at his matter-of-fact response. Heās watching me like he wants to say something else. When he doesnāt, I ask, āAre you showering with me?ā He nods and scoots to the edge of the bed. As he walks toward me, Iām already thinking about how Iām going to make him come a third time before we finish this shower situation.
I would say that every time Jae cooks, itās like eating at a restaurant. But itās not. Itās better. As if each dish is especially made with his unique styleāflavorful, filling and light. Heās not heavy-handed with seasonings, so itās always just right.
Weāre showered, well fed and in my bed again. Clothed this timeācomfortable in sweats and long-sleeved shirts. Iām lying on my back against the pillows with my hands cradling my head. Jae is sitting upright beside me with his legs folded. Our only points of physical contact are his left thigh resting against mine and his left hand snaked underneath my shirt. He has his palm on my stomach, gently caressing his fingers against my fleshāin and around my belly button. He switches back and forth between playing my abdomen like a piano and rubbing me like Iām a very good boy.
āWhat happened to you?ā he asks, his expression serious but sincere. āWhat was wrong last night?ā
I suspect heās been wanting to ask this question since before we took a shower but kept hesitating. Jae is good about reading the room and finding the right moment to say somethingāour first dinner date excluded.
I inhale deep then blow it out. āRen acted like a shithead yesterday when I went to feed from him.ā
āHow so?ā
āWell, letās seeā¦ He physically assaulted me and exerted his rank over me by suppressing me with his aura, dumped his twisted emotions into me when he fed then sent me on my way without letting me feed.ā